Keeping on.

Kerissa • October 6, 2017

Hey friends,

It’s been over 3 weeks since I last posted, and again, there’s so much to tell and to process.

But I will try to post an update for each medical specialty:

Podiatry~

On September the 19th, I had toenail surgery under anesthesia to correct the ingrown toenails.  Everything went well, but my toes are still bleeding/draining even now which means I have to continue soaking my feet in epsom salts.  It also hurts too much to wear shoes.  I have a follow-up with my podiatrist next week to make sure everything is healing well.

Pain Medicine~

The following day, my pain dr. performed a bilateral lumbar sympathetic nerve block to calm down the pain in both feet and try to prevent a CRPS/nerve pain flare-up.  After the procedure, I had to be monitored for a little while because I was so sleepy from the meds and my blood pressure got pretty low.  Thankfully, the block did help to prevent the CRPS from returning.

Otolaryngology~

On Friday the 22nd, I saw my ENT (ear, nose, and throat) dr. to follow-up on my swallowing.  Lately, food/liquid has been going down even before I swallow which causes choking.  So my ENT dr. said I’m experiencing something called “premature spillage.”  This is caused by a weak tongue that also doesn’t have good swallowing coordination anymore. He said the tongue is trying to tell the body that it’s too tired to eat.  All this is due to the mitochondrial disease worsening..  He said not much can be done for it, but he did refer me to the swallowing therapist.

Neurology~

I had an appointment with my neurologist recently to go over the EEG results.  Again, it’s abnormal in that it shows a lot of generalized slowing all over my brain which indicates “diffuse cerebral dysfunction.”  But thankfully, the whole body jerking I have during the day and especially at night is not caused by seizures.  She said this jerking (myoclonus) can be caused by a number of different things (brain, spinal cord, etc.), but there’s no way to know for sure where it’s coming from.  Since it disrupts my sleep, she prescribed a very strong anti-seizure medication which can also be used for myoclonus.  I started it a little bit ago, and I think it does help.

Physical Medicine~

I saw my physical medicine dr. this past Monday to follow-up on the back pain, osteopenia, etc.  I now have my spinal brace, and it feels good to wear it every now and then. Lately, my right shoulder has been snapping and popping a lot when I move it. I know I don’t post much about EDS (Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome), but it does continue to cause problems/joint pain.  He said these “subluxations” are stretching the joint capsule in my shoulder which is not good.  My shoulder is too loose from EDS… So he told me to be extra careful when I dress, move, etc.  He also ordered cervical (neck) spine x-rays to check up on my cervical instability since it’s been 3 years since they last checked.

Internal Medicine~

This past Tuesday, I had a 2-month follow-up with my PCP.  She is just so thorough and caring!  I am so blessed to have her oversee/coordinate all my medical care. We talked a lot about my upcoming surgery and how that will go with all my other medical issues.  She also wanted to know how I’m doing mentally because she knows that so many doctors often just take care of a certain part of my body and not the body as a whole.

Nephrology~

Unfortunately, the medication I tried for my renal magnesium wasting didn’t help at all. Really disappointed that my Mg level continues to be lower than it was in the past and that the medication didn’t benefit.  This means I continue to need 8 whole grams of IV Mg a day.

Swallowing Therapy~

I had a long session with my swallowing therapist for the first time this week.  She and the fellow evaluated my swallowing with lots of different food textures.  She had me work on several different swallowing techniques and exercises to try and help this “premature spillage” swallowing problem.  She doesn’t know if it will help, but we will at least try.  Some of the swallowing exercises are challenging!

Sleep Medicine~

Sadly, there are still no sleep study openings sooner than December.  So my sleep specialist this past Wednesday decided to try and order the new machine (called an adaptive-servo ventilator) for my bad central sleep apnea before the study and see if insurance will possibly cover it.  Please pray they will be willing to use only his chart notes for now to back up my need for this machine!

Urology~

Next week, I see my pediatric urology surgeon to go over the big surgery.  I also plan to ask her if she can possibly change my j-tube while I’m under anesthesia so that I don’t have to be awake for it when it does need to be changed.  *Side note: recently, my tube accidentally got ripped out of my abdomen (it got caught in a folding chair after I got up from sitting), and it was the worst acute pain ever!!! :’(  The balloon that holds the tube in place was still intact.  This meant the balloon which is bigger than the hole got yanked out of a tiny hole! It bled so much, and it was extremely difficult to insert it back in.  Tears automatically came from the severe pain.  And the area is still tender to this day. This is the first time that happened, and I’ve had this tube for 3 years!  I now have to use a feeding tube clip on my clothes to hold it up so that it doesn’t hang.*  So if my urology surgeon can’t change it, my PCP is going to ask if any of the pediatric general surgeons can replace it during the bladder surgery.

This weekend is my 25th birthday, and I know it’s only by God’s grace that I turn another year older.  I look back on being 24 years old, and I have to say, it’s been the hardest year yet mito-wise. Turning 25, I don’t know what will happen, but I do know that the Lord will be with me the coming year!  And that is such an encouragement.

P.S. I love this quote below! I’m just so thankful that my body (fighting mitochondrial disease every single day) won’t be like this for forever.  And it is only because of what Jesus did for me on the cross.❤

By Kerissa Lee January 3, 2026
Dear friends, As I reflect back on 2025, January started off looking very bleak. I had just recovered from yet another “mitochondrial crash” in December 2024, but my neck weakness was still significant and unresolved. I mentioned this many times, but I’ve never before experienced such severe muscle pain in my neck—it felt like my neck was doing a constant “plank exercise” 24/7. I cried so much and needed relief. 😭 Before this, I also truly took for granted how vital neck muscles are for ALL movement. Even simply standing requires neck strength to hold the head up. I was confined to my bed and the recliner because the neck weakness/pain was so debilitating. At the beginning of January was my long-awaited appointment with the neuromuscular neurologist at the University of Washington. But, the outcome was very disappointing because he simply took these symptoms to mean mitochondrial disease progression. My eyes are watering and my nose stings as I type this with emotion because I didn’t know (like I do now) what the following months would hold. I really did wonder if I was starting to die because not only did I have this disabling neck weakness but I also experienced severe nystagmus every single day (it never happened this frequently before). The brain is what controls eye movement, so my brain wasn’t getting enough energy needed for the simple act of moving the eyes. In February, after several blood tests came back with more “bad” autoimmune markers and I also started dealing with unusual joint pain in both elbows and shoulders, one of my doctors had me start taking 2 powerful antioxidants: N-Acetyl Cysteine (NAC) and Liposomal Glutathione. NAC, specifically, has shown that it can be beneficial for Lupus, an autoimmune disorder. We weren’t sure yet if my symptoms were early signs of Lupus, but my doctor recommended these antioxidants anyways for the mitochondrial depletion. When May came around, I once again had another “mito crash” with significant muscle weakness all over my body (not just in my neck), droopy eyelids, nausea, and increased pain. I was so thankful, though, that we were able to manage this one at home and I didn’t need to be admitted! Even more amazing was the fact that this was the month I noticed I could slightly lift my head half an inch off of the pillow (when lying down). Was God healing my neck? 🥹 June was a big month. As many of you know, 2 separate muscle biopsies show that I have Mitochondrial DNA Depletion Syndrome, but the doctors still can’t pinpoint the genetic mutation responsible for this depletion. So the OHSU metabolic team and I all wrote letters to apply to the NIH Undiagnosed Diseases Network (UDN). And God answered the first of many prayers as my case was surprisingly accepted. 🥲 I don’t currently have a recent update regarding this study as they told us it could take months or even years for anything to happen if anything happens at all (I should email them for an update). Last I heard, the team was analyzing all of my raw genetic data. At the end of June, my internal medicine doctor referred me to the Complex Pain clinic since I was still experiencing so much pain and needing high doses of pain meds. The specialist started me on Buprenorphine, but it’s been a rough go of it. It definitely helps the pain to become more manageable (another answer to prayer!), but it also causes horrible insomnia which I’m still dealing with. 😞 My sleep specialist said I’m basically experiencing a bad case of chronic jet lag—I’m simply exhausted and cannot fall asleep until 4:30-6:00 AM! 😭 A previous blog post shares about the “catch 22” I’m in. I’d so appreciate continued prayer for my sleep. It’s been very hard. :( July through September was amazing as I noticed that my neck weakness had improved a little more each day to the point that it eventually fully resolved….!! I truly could cry tears of joy and gratitude! 🥹🥹 Even my physical therapist started noticing that I didn’t have to hold my head up with my hands when moving around! God answered everyone’s prayers, and I fully believe he miraculously healed me in this area!! Yes, it could be that the 2 antioxidants helped, or it could be that I had finally recovered 9+ months later from something like Viral Myositis of the neck from fighting a viral infection in Hawaii in October 2024. My doctors just don’t know fully. But I am in awe at God’s lovingkindness and great mercy. 🥹❤️ 2 verses come to mind... One is from Ephesians 2:4–“But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us..” And the other is Philippians 2:27–“Indeed he was ill, near to death. But God had mercy on him..” The phrase “But God” sticks out to me. It reminds me that God is the one who has a plan and purpose for our lives, and it may be totally different than what we think is best or what we’d like. I don’t know what I would say or how I would act if the neck weakness still persisted to this day.. It would be extremely hard, and I know I would struggle greatly mentally and spiritually. But I also know 100% that God would faithfully sustain me like he did during those long, dark months from October 2024 to May 2025 and on.. God’s mercy continues to be so evident as I’m physically in even better shape than I was back in 2023. 🥹 Aside from my sleep, I’m doing so well that I might even have to find a part time job sometime down the road! I don’t know how long this “stable” period will last, and I know life could quickly change again in the blink of an eye (like it has in the past).. But, while I’m stable, I’m having the MOST JOY feeling quite “normal” and being strong enough/having the energy to babysit my almost 6-month old foster nephew. 💙 He’s over 17 pounds now, and every time I hold him, it’s such a GIFT from the Lord to have the muscle strength for carrying/lifting him! I wanted to end this on a joyous note by sharing one last thing that happened in 2025–the opening of my Pain With Purpose Shop around my 33rd birthday this past October! ☺️ It’s a joy selling my handlettered designs (just a heads-up, my card inventory clearance sale ends on the 5th!). 😊 It’s also SO special that my church’s Care Ministry can send encouragement cards I’ve designed to those in our church body who are experiencing suffering. This gives me a little purpose since it’s sometimes hard not to feel useless living with a chronic illness (I’m sure many of you who are suffering can definitely relate..). 😢 Unless something major happens again, I think this might be my last health update for a while as I’m so enjoying this stable season—I continually thank God for it and don’t want to take one moment for granted! I love you all and am so grateful that you are here with me in the valleys and on the mountain tops. 💚 
By Kerissa Lee December 28, 2025
Lucy and I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas! 🎄❤️ Yesterday, she turned 5 years old!! Where has the time gone?! She brings so much joy and laughter to our whole family—we love her more than words. 🥰 To celebrate and as this year comes to a close, my Pain With Purpose Shop is having a sale—I would love to clear out some of my old card inventory to make room for fresh, new designs in 2026!! ☺️ All cards have been marked down to $1.50 each. In addition, I’m also happy to share a promo code for FREE “first class” shipping which will work for all orders of up to 8 cards (unfortunately, an order of more than 8 cards switches to priority shipping..). To apply this offer, enter the code GOODBYE2025 to deduct the “first class” shipping fee. ✨ This sale and promo code will last through January 5th, 2026! Please don’t feel pressure at all to order from me…some of you buy my cards at full price, so I wanted to mark the card prices down for a bit! I’m so thankful for you all—your many prayers all these years have truly uplifted and encouraged me. I pray you have a blessed and happy new year!! 🤗 Stay tuned for my annual “reflections” blog post… ❤️
By Kerissa Lee November 17, 2025
Dear friends, Thank you so much for praying for me when I had that bad reaction to the autoimmune medication last month. I’m so incredibly blessed by your love and support. ❤️ I saw rheumatology recently, and instead of trying to prevent actual autoimmune disease from starting, they want to just monitor without any medication therapy. In other words, they want to see if more symptoms like fevers or rashes will appear (besides the joint pain that I already experience).. The medicine I did try (which worsened my mitochondrial symptoms) is actually the “safest” out there, and the other treatments for autoimmune disorders are much harder on the body—the team doesn’t think I’ll tolerate those well.. It’s difficult for them to know if all the bad antibodies that have been found in my blood will cause “actual” disease, and only time will tell.. So the plan is to just monitor and follow up with them in February. I wanted to see if my body could recover from this setback without having my IV fluids switched to a higher dextrose percentage. But by the last week of October (week 3 of this mitochondrial flare), the muscle weakness and increased pain all over was sadly still persisting, so I told my doctor. He sent in a new IV fluids order with the higher dextrose, and I’ve been receiving it for about 2 weeks now. I have definitely noticed an improvement in the muscle weakness which has been a huge blessing from the Lord. It was such a gift to feel well enough to go to a friend’s wedding reception at my church last week. 🥹 My cup was filled because I haven’t been able to see so many church friends in years! Regarding the piece of plaque that traveled to a small artery in my retina, I just had the carotid duplex scan completed last Tuesday to see if there’s any narrowing in the neck arteries. I also have the heart echocardiogram scheduled for tomorrow. My biggest, ongoing struggle has been my sleep. I’ve sadly been in a “catch 22” situation for many months now. I mentioned before that I was started on a new and safer pain medication this year. A rare side effect is insomnia, and it’s simply horrible. Night after night, every single day, I’m not able to fall asleep until after 4-6 AM. 😢 Believe me, I’ve tried every type of trick…from different sleep medications that my sleep specialist has prescribed, to all sorts of sleep supplements, praying, listening to worship music or white noise, stopping caffeine intake, etc. Nothing helps. The thing is, if I didn’t take this “new” pain medication, the pain from Mitochondrial DNA Depletion Syndrome is difficult to manage and it’s like an 8-9 on the pain scale. So then I’m up through the night, in horrible pain, and not able to sleep. But when I do take this medication, the pain is manageable, and it’s much safer to be on... Yet, I can’t sleep well while on it... Catch 22. I don’t know what to do, and it’s hard not to feel alone in this struggle. I’m so thankful to God that my health in other areas has been pretty stable.. In fact, this month (November) marks ONE WHOLE YEAR since I was last admitted to the hospital! Isn’t that soo amazing? Aside from these occasional mitochondrial flares/crashes (which happened in December, May, and October), I’ve been doing incredibly well, now that the neck weakness has resolved. But, this sleep struggle persists day after day.. I would love to be able to attend my church’s morning service in person or do many other activities in the morning. 😞 But I’m super exhausted. So many times, I ask God, “How do I go on and keep doing this every single night?” One thing I’ve learned is that God’s grace is truly sufficient for each day. He is the one who supplies me with the energy and grace to keep enduring. It’s hard, and I don’t know how long this sleep trial will last.. But, as Thanksgiving draws near, I’m reminded that I do have so much to be thankful for. Some of the biggest things: being physically able to help babysit my 4-month old foster nephew, shopping at the grocery store, having hand strength to design new note cards like the ones shown here, no longer experiencing neck weakness, and much more. The verse from Zephaniah I recently hand lettered above has been so encouraging lately. God is right by my side; he is mighty to save and will keep helping me through anything that I face. ❤️