Dear friends, I just cannot believe it’s been more than 2 months since my last blog post! So much has happened, but most of it is very happy news!! βΊοΈ I saw my GI surgeon in September for my post-op appointment (check out my previous post if you missed what surgery I had in August). I’m all healed thankfully, although there is now a noticeable crater on my abdomen where my j-tube used to be. :( Scar tissue inside is what’s causing that, and she told me I need to be careful when carrying very heavy things because I could get a hernia in that spot. π£ If that happened, she said she can easily repair it! I definitely don’t want another surgery, though! Aside from the short 4-day hospital stay I had in August for that abdominal surgery, I’m soo happy to share that the middle of November 2026 marks 2 WHOLE YEARS since I was last admitted to the hospital for a “mito crash!” I could cry from tears of happiness, and all praise and glory truly goes to God!! π₯Ή My previous stretch of stable health lasted about 17 months (from September 2021 to February 2023), so I surpassed that which is simply amazing! Because my health has been doing so well, even more incredible news is that I got a part time job!! I found work through care.com since I LOVE babies and kids. I started occasionally taking care of a 6 month old baby girl—she’s so adorable!! I also sometimes take care of a 5 year old girl with her 3 year old brother. For both of those jobs, I’m just the backup (for example, when extended family can’t provide care). But, last week, another mom reached out on care.com asking if I could be her 2 daughters’ afternoon nanny every Monday—the oldest girl is 6 years old, and her little sister is almost 3 years old. It’s been so wonderful and fulfilling to be able to work. I never want to take for granted how much of a gift it is to have a job! π₯² I do still have to rest my body on the days I don’t work because my muscle spasticity gets soo intense and painful. π It feels like my back muscles just continually clench up and spasm. Very thankful for the muscle relaxant Baclofen which helps the extreme tightness! The chronic pain also worsens in my legs/back, and my hand tremors do, too (called minipolymyoclonus). Regardless of these symptoms, it makes me so happy and thankful to God for the ability to work! π You might have noticed that I haven’t mentioned anything lately about my Pain With Purpose store. There are a bunch of reasons, but one of the biggest is that shipping has become more and more expensive which is a bummer. π For the past year, whenever a customer places an order, I’ve been paying part of the shipping cost out of my own pocket because I wanted to keep the shipping fee low. I’ve also wanted to keep card prices low because I totally understand how expensive everything is in this economy. But in today’s digital world, a really nice card (at Papyrus, for example) could cost more than $9!! So charging only $2.75 for one of my cards on top of keeping the shipping fee low has been a challenge. After thinking about it a lot, I’ve made the decision to close my store—at least, for now! Next year, it’d be super cool to sell my items (cards, stickers, bookmarks, prints, and magnets) at something like a pop-up! π So I will definitely be sure to keep you posted with any new shop updates! If you did place an order this past year, I wanted to say a big Thank You!! It meant so much to me, and I hope my cards were an encouragement. π₯° I don't know what God has planned for my future regarding my health and everything else, but I just want to have faith and keep leaning on him for strength, through any future highs or lows. The Lord truly is faithful! Thank you so much for praying for me these past 16+ years. β€οΈ
Dear friends, I just wanted to thank you all so much for praying for me during my abdominal surgery on August 6th! π All of your messages/emails really encouraged my heart! If you missed my previous post, I had to have an unexpected surgery to take down the jejunostomy tract and repair an enterocutaneous fistula (a rare complication from having a j-tube for 12 years). I truly felt your prayers, and the Lord answered so many of them as well! π₯Ή My surgeon only had to remove about 1 1/2 inches of my small intestine which is great news! I was in the hospital for 4 days because my blood pressure was low and pain control was rough (it’s a long story, but pain management is complex due to a specific medication I take daily at home..). But aside from that and having an allergic reaction to the surgical glue, I’ve been healing well. Thank you again for praying!! God has been so faithful throughout this journey. I got a visit from my sweet foster nephew when I was in the hospital (2nd picture)! π₯° I can’t wait until I can show you his face—he’s so adorable. π©΅ I’ve mentioned this before, but an important medication I take causes severe insomnia (still not falling asleep until anywhere between 3 AM-9 AM). π But I saw my naturopath this past Monday, and she’s going to treat me for suspected cortisol spiking up during the night (which disrupts the body’s circadian rhythm). I’m thankful for the wisdom God gives her, and I’m excited to see if this treatment will help! It will take 6 weeks to see if there’s any benefit, but I first have to specially order it.. ο»Ώ
"God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble." -Psalm 46:1
Lucy and I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas! πβ€οΈ Yesterday, she turned 5 years old!! Where has the time gone?! She brings so much joy and laughter to our whole family—we love her more than words. π₯° To celebrate and as this year comes to a close, my Pain With Purpose Shop is having a sale—I would love to clear out some of my old card inventory to make room for fresh, new designs in 2026!! βΊοΈ All cards have been marked down to $1.50 each. In addition, I’m also happy to share a promo code for FREE “first class” shipping which will work for all orders of up to 8 cards (unfortunately, an order of more than 8 cards switches to priority shipping..). To apply this offer, enter the code GOODBYE2025 to deduct the “first class” shipping fee. β¨ This sale and promo code will last through January 5th, 2026! Please don’t feel pressure at all to order from me…some of you buy my cards at full price, so I wanted to mark the card prices down for a bit! I’m so thankful for you all—your many prayers all these years have truly uplifted and encouraged me. I pray you have a blessed and happy new year!! π€ Stay tuned for my annual “reflections” blog post… β€οΈ
Dear friends, Thank you so much for praying for me when I had that bad reaction to the autoimmune medication last month. I’m so incredibly blessed by your love and support. β€οΈ I saw rheumatology recently, and instead of trying to prevent actual autoimmune disease from starting, they want to just monitor without any medication therapy. In other words, they want to see if more symptoms like fevers or rashes will appear (besides the joint pain that I already experience).. The medicine I did try (which worsened my mitochondrial symptoms) is actually the “safest” out there, and the other treatments for autoimmune disorders are much harder on the body—the team doesn’t think I’ll tolerate those well.. It’s difficult for them to know if all the bad antibodies that have been found in my blood will cause “actual” disease, and only time will tell.. So the plan is to just monitor and follow up with them in February. I wanted to see if my body could recover from this setback without having my IV fluids switched to a higher dextrose percentage. But by the last week of October (week 3 of this mitochondrial flare), the muscle weakness and increased pain all over was sadly still persisting, so I told my doctor. He sent in a new IV fluids order with the higher dextrose, and I’ve been receiving it for about 2 weeks now. I have definitely noticed an improvement in the muscle weakness which has been a huge blessing from the Lord. It was such a gift to feel well enough to go to a friend’s wedding reception at my church last week. π₯Ή My cup was filled because I haven’t been able to see so many church friends in years! Regarding the piece of plaque that traveled to a small artery in my retina, I just had the carotid duplex scan completed last Tuesday to see if there’s any narrowing in the neck arteries. I also have the heart echocardiogram scheduled for tomorrow. My biggest, ongoing struggle has been my sleep. I’ve sadly been in a “catch 22” situation for many months now. I mentioned before that I was started on a new and safer pain medication this year. A rare side effect is insomnia, and it’s simply horrible. Night after night, every single day, I’m not able to fall asleep until after 4-6 AM. π’ Believe me, I’ve tried every type of trick…from different sleep medications that my sleep specialist has prescribed, to all sorts of sleep supplements, praying, listening to worship music or white noise, stopping caffeine intake, etc. Nothing helps. The thing is, if I didn’t take this “new” pain medication, the pain from Mitochondrial DNA Depletion Syndrome is difficult to manage and it’s like an 8-9 on the pain scale. So then I’m up through the night, in horrible pain, and not able to sleep. But when I do take this medication, the pain is manageable, and it’s much safer to be on... Yet, I can’t sleep well while on it... Catch 22. I don’t know what to do, and it’s hard not to feel alone in this struggle. I’m so thankful to God that my health in other areas has been pretty stable.. In fact, this month (November) marks ONE WHOLE YEAR since I was last admitted to the hospital! Isn’t that soo amazing? Aside from these occasional mitochondrial flares/crashes (which happened in December, May, and October), I’ve been doing incredibly well, now that the neck weakness has resolved. But, this sleep struggle persists day after day.. I would love to be able to attend my church’s morning service in person or do many other activities in the morning. π But I’m super exhausted. So many times, I ask God, “How do I go on and keep doing this every single night?” One thing I’ve learned is that God’s grace is truly sufficient for each day. He is the one who supplies me with the energy and grace to keep enduring. It’s hard, and I don’t know how long this sleep trial will last.. But, as Thanksgiving draws near, I’m reminded that I do have so much to be thankful for. Some of the biggest things: being physically able to help babysit my 4-month old foster nephew, shopping at the grocery store, having hand strength to design new note cards like the ones shown here, no longer experiencing neck weakness, and much more. The verse from Zephaniah I recently hand lettered above has been so encouraging lately. God is right by my side; he is mighty to save and will keep helping me through anything that I face. β€οΈ ο»Ώ
Dear friends, At the beginning of October, I started taking a new medication for the autoimmune disease. I thought I was tolerating it just fine, but after several days passed, I began experiencing nausea, loss of appetite, weakness all over, and increased pain. π It’s like I’m experiencing another “mito crash.” I found out that this specific lupus medication affects mitochondria. That is, it causes an overproduction of reactive oxygen species (ROS). This, in turn, causes cell damage and oxidative stress. I sure wish the rheumatologists would have known about this before prescribing. But I have to remember that Mitochondrial DNA Depletion Syndrome is rare, and they’re not “mito experts.” Anyways, the last time I felt like this was back in May.. I’m so grateful to God that I haven’t needed to be hospitalized from this, but at the same time, I’m also sad that this happened at all, especially because I had such a nice stretch of stable health. I’d really appreciate your prayers, that this muscle weakness can resolve soon, and that this increased pain all over will get back to my baseline. Every time I have a “mito crash,” it feels like I’m fighting the flu which always sucks. The pain has been hard to bear. And whenever I’m in the thick of it, it’s difficult to remember that this too will eventually pass. π’ Pray that I will endure and follow Jesus’ example like this passage from Hebrews 12:1-2– “Let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross...” Thank you all so much for praying for me. β€οΈ
"He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be greatly shaken." Psalm 62:2
“Be still, and know that I am God.” -Psalm 46:10 ο»Ώ
There is hope in every trial For I can trust the Lord He will turn my heart towards Him And help me bear the thorn So, in faith, I follow Jesus On the road not understood For I know that He is working For His glory and my good -CityAlight
"This hard place in which you, perhaps, find yourself, is the very place in which God is giving you opportunity to look only to Him." ο»Ώ Elisabeth Elliot
"I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in his word I hope." Psalm 130:5
"For I will satisfy the weary soul, and every languishing soul I will replenish." Jeremiah 31:25
Hi friends, It’s been a little while since my last medical update. I recently got back from another neurology appointment at University of Washington Medical Center. This appointment was with a headache neurologist regarding my migraines and other neuro symptoms. It was a very thorough visit, and I’m so thankful the Lord answered our prayers for […]
Hi, friends, I’m sorry it’s taken me a while to write a Seattle update on my neuro appointment. More than a week ago, our internet line accidentally got cut during construction—you never realize how much you use the internet until you don’t have it!! π Regarding the “new” symptoms I’ve been experiencing since April (migraines […]
Hi, friends, It’s been a little while since I shared a medical update. To recap, I’ve been experiencing buzzing in my right ear, and I lost the ability for my right eyeball to look to the right. I’ve also been dealing with nystagmus and migraines about every other day (sometimes every day). My pain doctor […]
I lettered this piece a couple years ago and never shared it until now. I’m so grateful to God that He “does not leave us as we are.” My earthly body is so broken from disease (more on that below), and to know that Christ will one day give me a new body—what a wonderful promise. β€οΈ For […]
Hi, friends. π I just wanted to let you know what’s been happening lately. In the middle of March, I started losing muscle control in my arms/hands. π If I’m holding something, my hand will flop but then regain control quickly. Or if I’m holding my phone to text, etc., my fingers will suddenly tap […]
Hi friends, *If you’re wondering why there are random bullet points, my website had an update, and when I press the “enter” button to make new paragraphs, it doesn’t seem to work. So using bullet points is the only thing I could think of to make spaces in between paragraphs. π
Anywho, I just wanted […]
Hi, friends, Wow, it’s been a while! I just wanted to check in and post a health update. π I’ve been home from the hospital for almost 2 whole months now which is so hard to believe. Time is definitely flying, but at the same time, my recovery from the mito crash has […]
Hi friends, I just had some prayer requests again. It’s been almost 3 weeks since I came home from the hospital, but I’m still really weak. So in addition to physical therapy, my doctor referred me to occupational hand therapy at OHSU as it’s so hard to open/hold things, hand letter, etc. (the above […]
Friends, could you please pray for me? After spending 10 long days in the hospital, I was finally able to go home on Friday. But it’s been very hard—I’m extremely weak all over, and I’ve also been having these horrible episodes where my heart rate shoots up, I feel hot and cold at the […]
Hey friends, Just wanted to check in with a medical update. Thank you so much for your continued prayers for me! I’m so grateful. The past few months have been a little rough since I last posted, and I’ve had to just take it one day at a time and lean on the Lord […]
* I shared this on Facebook and Instagram but wanted to post it on my blog as well since some of you here aren’t on social media. π * I originally had the background of this in blue, but then I remembered that today starts Mitochondrial Disease Awareness Week 2019! So I of course had […]
Hey friends, First of all, I’m sorry it’s been so long again since I last blogged. π Last month, I had my mitochondrial appointment in San Diego—traveling and the trip in general was hard physically (more details below), so when we got home, I had terrible nystagmus and other rough mito symptoms. And then, […]
Hey friends, It’s been exactly 2 whole months since I last posted—I’m sorry I haven’t kept you in the loop lately! In October, I had a tunneled central line infection (thankfully, it didn’t spread to my blood). My central line site was really tender and oozing a little. So my GI specialist quickly […]
Hey friends, It’s been more than a month since I last posted….and sometimes, no news DOESN’T mean good news. π This will be extremely long, but I want to document everything to remember….so here goes! About 24 hours after my hip labral repair surgery on August 10th, I went into septic shock (there […]
Hey friends, I’m sorry it’s taken me so long to write an update on how my neurometabolic appointment in San Diego went! Been trying to pull all my thoughts together on what we learned at the appointment. After updating my mito dr. on all that’s happened since I last saw him, he […]
“Instead of a river, God often gives us a brook which may be running today and dried up tomorrow. Why? To teach us not to rest in our blessings, but in the blesser Himself.” -AW Pink Hey friends, I’m so sorry that I haven’t blogged since October!! π November was a pretty busy […]
Hello friends, I recently had a long appointment with my urology surgeon at Doernbecher’s. She explained how this is a very major bladder surgery….and I was so shocked to hear her say that this surgery can last up to 12 hours….(for example, it could start at around 7:30 AM but not end until 7:30 […]
Hey friends, It’s been over 3 weeks since I last posted, and again, there’s so much to tell and to process. π But I will try to post an update for each medical specialty: Podiatry~ On September the 19th, I had toenail surgery under anesthesia to correct the ingrown toenails. Everything went […]
Hey friends, Just a short update. Since the day after Thanksgiving, I’ve been sick with low-grade fevers, a painful sore throat, swollen glands, a barking cough day and night, and terrible fatigue. The doctor thought at first that it was a bad virus, but now he believes I have a bacterial infection in my […]
“Pain is a forest we all get lost in Between the branches, hope can be so hard to see And in the darkness, we’ve all got questions We’re all just trying to make sense out of suffering, but You say I am blessed because of this So, I choose to believe As I carry this […]
“Joy is not necessarily the absence of suffering. It is the presence of God.” ~Sam Storms Last week, I threw up a ton again, and it never gets easier. π We don’t know what caused it this time…but my GI dr. thinks these vomiting episodes are from my gastroparesis/intestinal dysmotility. My feet […]
Hello friends, For those who didn’t hear, my grandma passed away the day after Thanksgiving. We had a beautiful service for her this past Saturday. We all miss her so much. :'( It sure is different not to have any more grandparents living. On November 20th, my GI dr. called, and I got diagnosed with […]
Hi everyone, Just wanted to let you know that things medically are going ok with me, but my grandma (my only remaining grandparent) is not doing well at all and is in the last days of her life due to congestive heart failure. π It’s been so hard to see her decline…the hospice nurse thought […]
Hey friends, My liver biopsy last Friday went very well! Thank you so much for praying! The doctors were able to obtain two specimens without complication. After the biopsy, though, my kidneys took a hit that weekend, and I suddenly gained 4 lbs. of fluid. π We weren’t sure what was going on and if […]
Hey everyone, I just wanted to let you know that I will be getting admitted the day after Christmas. I’m very thankful for my GI dr.—he’s working at the hospital and not in clinic all this week, but he arranged and coordinated everything so quickly! I’m not doing very well. The pro-motility drug I’ve been […]
Hi everyone, We thought this week would have been my scheduled admission to the hospital since I haven’t tolerated glutamine, but we’re trying one last thing to re-mobilize my small intestine. My GI specialist really wants to avoid TPN (he recently told us he has two critical patients in the hospital because of sepsis from […]
Hey friends, I’d appreciate your continued prayers! My small intestine is in bad shape. Still can’t tolerate j-tube feeds or solid food orally. And I’m now getting distended with just liquids… π The dysmotility in my small intestine has gotten so much worse. Mitochondrial disease is horrible! I’m being followed very closely by my GI […]
It’s so good to be back in Oregon!! π Missed my siblings so much! Last week alone, I had 8 appointments at CCHMC—that was crazy busy! But these past weeks were incredible, and I’m again so amazed at how thorough and caring the doctors/nurses are at Cincinnati Children’s Hospital Medical Center! I’m so blessed to […]
Hi, everyone! This morning, I saw the mitochondrial disease specialist and genetic counselor in the Human Genetics department at Cincinnati Children’s. We went over my history/new symptoms and discussed my nuclear mitochondrial exome sequencing results. For those new to my blog, I had my nuclear mitochondrial genes sequenced through a lab called Courtagen Diagnostics […]
Yesterday: Saw cardiology and orthopedics for my POTS disorder and back pain. Will update some other day about how these appointments went. π Today: It snowed about 4 more inches this morning here in Cincinnati! Sooo fun and beautiful. Had an abdomen x-ray to follow up on this GI test I had this past Thursday […]
I had a great neurology appointment today! Things are really moving along now. :o) This is what’s on my plate the next few weeks. She wants me to get another MRI, but this time it will be of my lumbosacral plexus nerves (isn’t that fun to say?). π She also ordered another diagnostic test called […]
Had a great day yesterday!! π So many of you have been so supportive and encouraging to me! Thank you for lifting me up in prayer. <3 That means so much to me. My pain dr. showed no sign of discouragement yesterday! He was very cheery and compassionate. π We discussed my MRIs and one […]
Everything is still raw, and I wept great big tears this morning, but I know all of you want to know the results of my MRIs, so here they are. I don’t have the report yet, but in one word, they are “normal.” I don’t understand. :'( I’ve asked God all morning, “Why??” I know […]
