Hello, friends, I just wanted to share a blog update and thank you all so much for your prayers these last several weeks. β€οΈ They help me to persevere! I previously posted that the interventional radiology team said my old port needs to be removed because of the site being too exposed from skin breakdown. Well, on May 19th, I had a virtual appointment with the IR nurse practitioner. To my great disappointment, she didn’t want me to get a new port and said I need a central line instead. I tried explaining to her that all my previous central lines always got infected and caused sepsis, but she still wouldn’t budge. π I left that appointment and cried. I kept reciting Romans 8:28 (“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose”). I knew that God was in control, but I was still so sad.. The next day was my port removal surgery and central line placement. Many of you already know this from FB/IG, but I wanted to re-share the following here on my blog as well! When I met the attending physician who was going to do the surgery, I told him my whole story and asked if he could please consider placing a new port instead of a central line. And do you want to hear something soo amazing?! He nonchalantly said, “I can place a port!” I was so shocked! π₯Ή I immediately felt God’s mercy and kindness in sovereignly arranging this specific doctor to be the one to care for me. Both surgeries were back to back, and everything was much more difficult than he was expecting! In his chart notes, he stated that it took “more than twice the usual time, an unusually large amount of materials, and required a very high level of technical expertise and skill.” It was a great challenge removing my old port because of scar tissue and because it was so embedded to my chest wall. π₯ He had to yank, pull, and manipulate a ton—all of that caused a huge bruise to form over my chest. When he used fluoroscopy (moving x-ray), he also saw on x-ray that there’s a 7 mm cylindrical foreign body in my chest (pictured below). He assumes it’s a retained port fragment from an old port surgery that happened years ago. We’re just going to leave it there.. π I was awake the whole time because none of the sedation meds worked! I’ve unfortunately had more than 20+ surgeries/procedures, so my body has become immune to certain sedation meds. The team recommends that I have much stronger anesthesia next time.. So thankful that the Lord helped me through this painful process! In other news, I finally get to have this temporary, bulky j-tube replaced with a low-profile one on the 23rd! My GI surgeon was hoping that the temporary tube would give the site a break and help heal all the inflammation (which was caused by buried bumper syndrome when the balloon got stuck in the abdominal wall 2 months ago). And I think that did the trick because the site is no longer leaking a ton! π₯² Praying that switching back to the low-profile tube doesn’t cause an uptick in pain/leaking.. Last week, I had a bit of a scare when blood started coming out of the j-tube stoma (hole) for several days. We don’t exactly know what caused the bleeding, but thankfully, it stopped! If it does happen again, the GI nurse practitioner ordered an abdominal ultrasound.. If you made it this far, I’d so appreciate continued prayers for my sleep. Still experiencing bad insomnia as a side effect from an important medication that I need. It’s so hard when I can’t fall asleep until after 5:30-6:30 AM every single day. π I don’t know what else to do except take each day as it comes and lean on the Lord for endurance. π Aside from this, still so grateful to God that I’m doing really well mitochondrial-wise! For those who may not remember, my naturopathic doctor at the OHSU pain center started me on 2 very strong antioxidants last year: liposomal glutathione and n-acetyl cysteine. When I started taking both regularly for several months, the neck weakness resolved and the overall muscle fatigue improved a lot. By God’s grace, I’ve physically been very stable which is a huge answer to prayer!! π₯Ή P.S. It’s taken me a while to share this, but a few months ago, I added 11 new card designs to my shop. Here are some of my faves. βΊοΈ I’ve sadly run into another unfortunate predicament with the e-commerce site I sell on, but I’ll try to share that story another time.. π ο»Ώ
Hi, friends, Last week, I unfortunately caught norovirus from my parents who caught it most likely from a wedding. π All the vomiting caused dehydration, and my heart rate was high (up to 150 bpm). Every 30 minutes, I kept getting a notification on my Apple Watch saying that my heart rate was too high. Thankful I didn’t have to get admitted and could infuse the rest of my IV bags here at home. My neck is showing signs of weakness like after the time I got sick in Hawaii. π₯Ί Really praying the muscles are just trying to recover from the vomiting/dry-heaving.. On top of that, the skin at my port site has sadly been breaking down over time. My dr. ordered a PICC line for me to let the port site heal. But the IR (interventional radiology) team said I need to have my port surgically removed because the site is “too exposed.” Definitely wasn’t expecting that! π₯ The IR team wants me to get a central line instead of another port, but I tried explaining to them that I’ve had sepsis too many times from multiple central lines. Plus, my quality of life is so much better with a port because I can shower when the needle is de-accessed. That’s just one of the reasons.. If I had a central line, I’d have to cover it and put tape all over which is not fun. I have a virtual appointment with someone on the IR team this coming Tuesday. Could you please pray the radiologist will be understanding, compassionate, and willing for me to have another port placed? I know this is in God’s hands regardless of the outcome. π Surgery to remove my port and place something new (whether it’s a port or central line) is this coming Wednesday.. We’ll know the time the day before.. I’ve been reading a memoir by a young mother named Amber Emily Smith who tragically lost her 3-year old son to drowning in their family’s pool. In her book, she shared the story of the poet Annie Johnson Flint who developed a severe arthritis that left her hands disfigured and also caused her unable to walk. It was in the midst of her suffering that she became a poet. I’m sure many of you have read this poem before, but it’s such an encouraging one, and I hope it fills your heart with hope. β€οΈ “God hath not promised smooth roads and wise, Swift, easy travel, needing no guide; Never a mountain rocky and steep, Never a river turbid and deep. But God hath promised strength for the day, Rest for the labor, light for the way, Grace for the trials, help from above, Unfailing sympathy, undying love.”
Hi, friends, I just wanted to write an update on what’s happened since my last post. Sadly, the 2 different tube changes haven’t helped, and there’s still so much leaking around the tube. π The abdominal pain was decreasing each day, but for some reason, it has ramped up again and has been steadily getting worse the last several days. The pain is sharp and throbbing—it also hurts to use my abdominal muscles. I saw my primary care dr. this past Friday, and he ordered an urgent CT scan. I had that done this past Monday, and the scan shows that the balloon on the tube is lodged in my abdominal wall (it’s called buried bumper syndrome). π₯ So painful, but I’m thankful for answers! I actually had this issue many years ago, and usually, changing the tube size helps. But we’ve already tried 2 different tube sizes in March which hasn’t helped. I don’t know if the tract got damaged or what.. My PCP messaged the surgery team twice now, but they’re not responding still. Ever since my general surgeon left OHSU 2ish years ago to practice in New Orleans, it hasn’t been a good transfer to a different team. π’ In addition, the CT scan also revealed that I have ground glass opacities in my left lung, so I have to go through work-up for that as well to figure out the cause.. Aside from these latest issues, I’m praising God that my mitochondrial disease has been stable still!! So thankful for God’s grace and faithfulness. The day I got my CT results, I read this excerpt below from one of Joni Eareckson Tada’s daily devotionals, and it was like the Lord was speaking right to my heart. I hope it’s an encouragement to you. β€οΈ “Present pain and afflictions tend to heighten future joy. When is peace the sweetest? Right after the conflict. When does a cold drink taste best? When you’ve become very thirsty. When do you appreciate rest the most? After hours of hard labor. When is joyful company most pleasant? After enduring long days of loneliness. The truth is, our recollection of past sufferings may one day enhance the bliss of heaven. Eternity with the Lord will be so much more heavenly to those of us whose faith has been tested, battered, and tried, time and again.” -Joni Eareckson Tada One more thing.. I’d really love prayers for my uncle (my dad’s older brother). He’s been very sick in the neuro ICU with serious issues. First pneumonia, then bacteria in his spine which later broke his back. He had a major spinal surgery but still can’t move his legs. π₯Ί On top of that, his kidneys started failing, so he had to be placed on continuous dialysis. He also had to be put on a ventilator due to fluid in his lungs. Then, he still couldn’t breathe well, so he had to get a tracheostomy tube placed in his neck. π₯Ί Despite all this, he and his family are so strong and trusting the Lord which is a huge testimony to all of us and to the ICU. Could you please pray for peace, strength, and healing over his body? I know he and his family would be so grateful for your prayers. π P.S. I wish I could show you my foster nephew’s sweet face in this photo from Easter Sunday! He is now 9 months old—the most precious and adorable little boy!! Our lives are so much sweeter with him in it. π₯Ή
Lucy and I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas! πβ€οΈ Yesterday, she turned 5 years old!! Where has the time gone?! She brings so much joy and laughter to our whole family—we love her more than words. π₯° To celebrate and as this year comes to a close, my Pain With Purpose Shop is having a sale—I would love to clear out some of my old card inventory to make room for fresh, new designs in 2026!! βΊοΈ All cards have been marked down to $1.50 each. In addition, I’m also happy to share a promo code for FREE “first class” shipping which will work for all orders of up to 8 cards (unfortunately, an order of more than 8 cards switches to priority shipping..). To apply this offer, enter the code GOODBYE2025 to deduct the “first class” shipping fee. β¨ This sale and promo code will last through January 5th, 2026! Please don’t feel pressure at all to order from me…some of you buy my cards at full price, so I wanted to mark the card prices down for a bit! I’m so thankful for you all—your many prayers all these years have truly uplifted and encouraged me. I pray you have a blessed and happy new year!! π€ Stay tuned for my annual “reflections” blog post… β€οΈ
Dear friends, Thank you so much for praying for me when I had that bad reaction to the autoimmune medication last month. I’m so incredibly blessed by your love and support. β€οΈ I saw rheumatology recently, and instead of trying to prevent actual autoimmune disease from starting, they want to just monitor without any medication therapy. In other words, they want to see if more symptoms like fevers or rashes will appear (besides the joint pain that I already experience).. The medicine I did try (which worsened my mitochondrial symptoms) is actually the “safest” out there, and the other treatments for autoimmune disorders are much harder on the body—the team doesn’t think I’ll tolerate those well.. It’s difficult for them to know if all the bad antibodies that have been found in my blood will cause “actual” disease, and only time will tell.. So the plan is to just monitor and follow up with them in February. I wanted to see if my body could recover from this setback without having my IV fluids switched to a higher dextrose percentage. But by the last week of October (week 3 of this mitochondrial flare), the muscle weakness and increased pain all over was sadly still persisting, so I told my doctor. He sent in a new IV fluids order with the higher dextrose, and I’ve been receiving it for about 2 weeks now. I have definitely noticed an improvement in the muscle weakness which has been a huge blessing from the Lord. It was such a gift to feel well enough to go to a friend’s wedding reception at my church last week. π₯Ή My cup was filled because I haven’t been able to see so many church friends in years! Regarding the piece of plaque that traveled to a small artery in my retina, I just had the carotid duplex scan completed last Tuesday to see if there’s any narrowing in the neck arteries. I also have the heart echocardiogram scheduled for tomorrow. My biggest, ongoing struggle has been my sleep. I’ve sadly been in a “catch 22” situation for many months now. I mentioned before that I was started on a new and safer pain medication this year. A rare side effect is insomnia, and it’s simply horrible. Night after night, every single day, I’m not able to fall asleep until after 4-6 AM. π’ Believe me, I’ve tried every type of trick…from different sleep medications that my sleep specialist has prescribed, to all sorts of sleep supplements, praying, listening to worship music or white noise, stopping caffeine intake, etc. Nothing helps. The thing is, if I didn’t take this “new” pain medication, the pain from Mitochondrial DNA Depletion Syndrome is difficult to manage and it’s like an 8-9 on the pain scale. So then I’m up through the night, in horrible pain, and not able to sleep. But when I do take this medication, the pain is manageable, and it’s much safer to be on... Yet, I can’t sleep well while on it... Catch 22. I don’t know what to do, and it’s hard not to feel alone in this struggle. I’m so thankful to God that my health in other areas has been pretty stable.. In fact, this month (November) marks ONE WHOLE YEAR since I was last admitted to the hospital! Isn’t that soo amazing? Aside from these occasional mitochondrial flares/crashes (which happened in December, May, and October), I’ve been doing incredibly well, now that the neck weakness has resolved. But, this sleep struggle persists day after day.. I would love to be able to attend my church’s morning service in person or do many other activities in the morning. π But I’m super exhausted. So many times, I ask God, “How do I go on and keep doing this every single night?” One thing I’ve learned is that God’s grace is truly sufficient for each day. He is the one who supplies me with the energy and grace to keep enduring. It’s hard, and I don’t know how long this sleep trial will last.. But, as Thanksgiving draws near, I’m reminded that I do have so much to be thankful for. Some of the biggest things: being physically able to help babysit my 4-month old foster nephew, shopping at the grocery store, having hand strength to design new note cards like the ones shown here, no longer experiencing neck weakness, and much more. The verse from Zephaniah I recently hand lettered above has been so encouraging lately. God is right by my side; he is mighty to save and will keep helping me through anything that I face. β€οΈ ο»Ώ
Dear friends, At the beginning of October, I started taking a new medication for the autoimmune disease. I thought I was tolerating it just fine, but after several days passed, I began experiencing nausea, loss of appetite, weakness all over, and increased pain. π It’s like I’m experiencing another “mito crash.” I found out that this specific lupus medication affects mitochondria. That is, it causes an overproduction of reactive oxygen species (ROS). This, in turn, causes cell damage and oxidative stress. I sure wish the rheumatologists would have known about this before prescribing. But I have to remember that Mitochondrial DNA Depletion Syndrome is rare, and they’re not “mito experts.” Anyways, the last time I felt like this was back in May.. I’m so grateful to God that I haven’t needed to be hospitalized from this, but at the same time, I’m also sad that this happened at all, especially because I had such a nice stretch of stable health. I’d really appreciate your prayers, that this muscle weakness can resolve soon, and that this increased pain all over will get back to my baseline. Every time I have a “mito crash,” it feels like I’m fighting the flu which always sucks. The pain has been hard to bear. And whenever I’m in the thick of it, it’s difficult to remember that this too will eventually pass. π’ Pray that I will endure and follow Jesus’ example like this passage from Hebrews 12:1-2– “Let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross...” Thank you all so much for praying for me. β€οΈ
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Hi friends, It’s been a little while since my last medical update. I recently got back from another neurology appointment at University of Washington Medical Center. This appointment was with a headache neurologist regarding my migraines and other neuro symptoms. It was a very thorough visit, and I’m so thankful the Lord answered our prayers for […]
Hi, friends, I’m sorry it’s taken me a while to write a Seattle update on my neuro appointment. More than a week ago, our internet line accidentally got cut during construction—you never realize how much you use the internet until you don’t have it!! π Regarding the “new” symptoms I’ve been experiencing since April (migraines […]
Hi, friends, It’s been a little while since I shared a medical update. To recap, I’ve been experiencing buzzing in my right ear, and I lost the ability for my right eyeball to look to the right. I’ve also been dealing with nystagmus and migraines about every other day (sometimes every day). My pain doctor […]
I lettered this piece a couple years ago and never shared it until now. I’m so grateful to God that He “does not leave us as we are.” My earthly body is so broken from disease (more on that below), and to know that Christ will one day give me a new body—what a wonderful promise. β€οΈ For […]
Hi, friends. π I just wanted to let you know what’s been happening lately. In the middle of March, I started losing muscle control in my arms/hands. π If I’m holding something, my hand will flop but then regain control quickly. Or if I’m holding my phone to text, etc., my fingers will suddenly tap […]
Hi friends, *If you’re wondering why there are random bullet points, my website had an update, and when I press the “enter” button to make new paragraphs, it doesn’t seem to work. So using bullet points is the only thing I could think of to make spaces in between paragraphs. π
Anywho, I just wanted […]
Hi, friends, Wow, it’s been a while! I just wanted to check in and post a health update. π I’ve been home from the hospital for almost 2 whole months now which is so hard to believe. Time is definitely flying, but at the same time, my recovery from the mito crash has […]
Hi friends, I just had some prayer requests again. It’s been almost 3 weeks since I came home from the hospital, but I’m still really weak. So in addition to physical therapy, my doctor referred me to occupational hand therapy at OHSU as it’s so hard to open/hold things, hand letter, etc. (the above […]
Friends, could you please pray for me? After spending 10 long days in the hospital, I was finally able to go home on Friday. But it’s been very hard—I’m extremely weak all over, and I’ve also been having these horrible episodes where my heart rate shoots up, I feel hot and cold at the […]
Hey friends, Just wanted to check in with a medical update. Thank you so much for your continued prayers for me! I’m so grateful. The past few months have been a little rough since I last posted, and I’ve had to just take it one day at a time and lean on the Lord […]
* I shared this on Facebook and Instagram but wanted to post it on my blog as well since some of you here aren’t on social media. π * I originally had the background of this in blue, but then I remembered that today starts Mitochondrial Disease Awareness Week 2019! So I of course had […]
Hey friends, First of all, I’m sorry it’s been so long again since I last blogged. π Last month, I had my mitochondrial appointment in San Diego—traveling and the trip in general was hard physically (more details below), so when we got home, I had terrible nystagmus and other rough mito symptoms. And then, […]
Hey friends, It’s been exactly 2 whole months since I last posted—I’m sorry I haven’t kept you in the loop lately! In October, I had a tunneled central line infection (thankfully, it didn’t spread to my blood). My central line site was really tender and oozing a little. So my GI specialist quickly […]
Hey friends, It’s been more than a month since I last posted….and sometimes, no news DOESN’T mean good news. π This will be extremely long, but I want to document everything to remember….so here goes! About 24 hours after my hip labral repair surgery on August 10th, I went into septic shock (there […]
Hey friends, I’m sorry it’s taken me so long to write an update on how my neurometabolic appointment in San Diego went! Been trying to pull all my thoughts together on what we learned at the appointment. After updating my mito dr. on all that’s happened since I last saw him, he […]
“Instead of a river, God often gives us a brook which may be running today and dried up tomorrow. Why? To teach us not to rest in our blessings, but in the blesser Himself.” -AW Pink Hey friends, I’m so sorry that I haven’t blogged since October!! π November was a pretty busy […]
Hello friends, I recently had a long appointment with my urology surgeon at Doernbecher’s. She explained how this is a very major bladder surgery….and I was so shocked to hear her say that this surgery can last up to 12 hours….(for example, it could start at around 7:30 AM but not end until 7:30 […]
Hey friends, It’s been over 3 weeks since I last posted, and again, there’s so much to tell and to process. π But I will try to post an update for each medical specialty: Podiatry~ On September the 19th, I had toenail surgery under anesthesia to correct the ingrown toenails. Everything went […]
Hey friends, Just a short update. Since the day after Thanksgiving, I’ve been sick with low-grade fevers, a painful sore throat, swollen glands, a barking cough day and night, and terrible fatigue. The doctor thought at first that it was a bad virus, but now he believes I have a bacterial infection in my […]
“Pain is a forest we all get lost in Between the branches, hope can be so hard to see And in the darkness, we’ve all got questions We’re all just trying to make sense out of suffering, but You say I am blessed because of this So, I choose to believe As I carry this […]
“Joy is not necessarily the absence of suffering. It is the presence of God.” ~Sam Storms Last week, I threw up a ton again, and it never gets easier. π We don’t know what caused it this time…but my GI dr. thinks these vomiting episodes are from my gastroparesis/intestinal dysmotility. My feet […]
Hello friends, For those who didn’t hear, my grandma passed away the day after Thanksgiving. We had a beautiful service for her this past Saturday. We all miss her so much. :'( It sure is different not to have any more grandparents living. On November 20th, my GI dr. called, and I got diagnosed with […]
Hi everyone, Just wanted to let you know that things medically are going ok with me, but my grandma (my only remaining grandparent) is not doing well at all and is in the last days of her life due to congestive heart failure. π It’s been so hard to see her decline…the hospice nurse thought […]
Hey friends, My liver biopsy last Friday went very well! Thank you so much for praying! The doctors were able to obtain two specimens without complication. After the biopsy, though, my kidneys took a hit that weekend, and I suddenly gained 4 lbs. of fluid. π We weren’t sure what was going on and if […]
Hey everyone, I just wanted to let you know that I will be getting admitted the day after Christmas. I’m very thankful for my GI dr.—he’s working at the hospital and not in clinic all this week, but he arranged and coordinated everything so quickly! I’m not doing very well. The pro-motility drug I’ve been […]
Hi everyone, We thought this week would have been my scheduled admission to the hospital since I haven’t tolerated glutamine, but we’re trying one last thing to re-mobilize my small intestine. My GI specialist really wants to avoid TPN (he recently told us he has two critical patients in the hospital because of sepsis from […]
Hey friends, I’d appreciate your continued prayers! My small intestine is in bad shape. Still can’t tolerate j-tube feeds or solid food orally. And I’m now getting distended with just liquids… π The dysmotility in my small intestine has gotten so much worse. Mitochondrial disease is horrible! I’m being followed very closely by my GI […]
It’s so good to be back in Oregon!! π Missed my siblings so much! Last week alone, I had 8 appointments at CCHMC—that was crazy busy! But these past weeks were incredible, and I’m again so amazed at how thorough and caring the doctors/nurses are at Cincinnati Children’s Hospital Medical Center! I’m so blessed to […]
Hi, everyone! This morning, I saw the mitochondrial disease specialist and genetic counselor in the Human Genetics department at Cincinnati Children’s. We went over my history/new symptoms and discussed my nuclear mitochondrial exome sequencing results. For those new to my blog, I had my nuclear mitochondrial genes sequenced through a lab called Courtagen Diagnostics […]
Yesterday: Saw cardiology and orthopedics for my POTS disorder and back pain. Will update some other day about how these appointments went. π Today: It snowed about 4 more inches this morning here in Cincinnati! Sooo fun and beautiful. Had an abdomen x-ray to follow up on this GI test I had this past Thursday […]
I had a great neurology appointment today! Things are really moving along now. :o) This is what’s on my plate the next few weeks. She wants me to get another MRI, but this time it will be of my lumbosacral plexus nerves (isn’t that fun to say?). π She also ordered another diagnostic test called […]
Had a great day yesterday!! π So many of you have been so supportive and encouraging to me! Thank you for lifting me up in prayer. <3 That means so much to me. My pain dr. showed no sign of discouragement yesterday! He was very cheery and compassionate. π We discussed my MRIs and one […]
Everything is still raw, and I wept great big tears this morning, but I know all of you want to know the results of my MRIs, so here they are. I don’t have the report yet, but in one word, they are “normal.” I don’t understand. :'( I’ve asked God all morning, “Why??” I know […]
