Reflections on this past year 2013
Kerissa • January 1, 2014
Another year is just about over! As I look back on these past 12 months….2013 was filled with unexpected events and a lot of “firsts” (and “seconds”). You could say this is my belated Christmas letter..
I’m sorry if this is a bit long….a lot happened this year. lol
In the middle of January
, I came down with a 103.3 fever that wouldn’t break, even after taking Advil and Aleve that morning and the night before.
I took my first
ambulance ride to the ER after the paramedics came to my house. I remember hearing one paramedic saying, “She’s burning up.” And still another told me, “I’m so glad your dad called us.”
My heart rate got very high (in the 150 bpm range)—the doctors had to quickly give me about 4 liters of IV fluids before things started calming down. One resident dr. told me, “You’re a troublemaker!”
My labwork came back all out of whack, and I tested positive for Influenza B. The flu hit my mom and sister as well, but it was the hardest on me because of the mitochondrial disease..
The flu caused a terrible CRPS flare-up
—the pain got so unbearable, and my feet swelled up.
Once I recovered from that ordeal, I had my first
bilateral lumbar sympathetic block to calm the pain down. After doing LSBs for 25 years, Dr. S told me that was his first
time performing a bilateral one!
In April
, my parents, sister, and I traveled to Cincinnati, Ohio for the first
time where I saw Genetics, Neurology, and Pain at Cincinnati Children’s Hospital Medical Center!
We spent a week there, and this is when the doctors really started suspecting mitochondrial disease.
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Met this precious little guy at the RMH! He was getting ready to have a bone marrow transplant! I know I shared this pic before, but it’s one of my favorites! |
On May
21st, my 90 year old grandma (my dad’s mom) passed away suddenly due to a suspected pulmonary embolism. :'( That was so hard, and it was the first
time my siblings and I really experienced the death of a grandparent (my oldest brother was only 6 months when our grandpa passed away from a heart attack).
A lot happened in July. My 89 year old grandpa (my mom’s dad) passed away from kidney failure. :'( We weren’t expecting that, also, because he was given up to 6 months to live. As you can imagine, that was so difficult for all of us to go through two close family deaths in not even two months. We all miss our grandparents terribly.
I’m not sure if it was because of the stress, but that month, I began experiencing chronic GI issues for the first
time (which are still going on today).
In July as well, my geneticist in Cincy ordered nuclear mitochondrial exome sequencing. That was my first
extensive genetic test which took about 6 weeks to be completed.
But before the test could get started, our insurance denied the exome sequencing because it was out-of-network. The lab had to go through the appeals process which took an incredibly long 5 weeks! But thanks be to God and the amazing laboratory Courtagen Diagnostics, the testing did get appealed! And our insurance agreed to cover the whole cost!
In August
, a caring and thoughtful family in our church let my family use their beautiful beach house for a whole week!!! That trip to the coast was much needed and such a blessing.
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| Our view from the beach house. |
Soon after my 21st birthday in October
, I had a second
lumbar puncture (spinal tap) to check certain lab values at the request of Dr. H, a mitochondrial specialist in San Diego. I’m still currently trying to get in to see him, but this again may take several months..
Beginning in November
, I started having difficulty swallowing (but not from a sore throat) and severe esophagus pain. Eating brought extreme pain, and for more than a week, it felt like food was stuck in my esophagus. For the second
time this year, I had to take another trip to the ER. The doctors had me stay overnight in the observation unit as they tried getting to the bottom of this. I had a test done called an esophagram, but this revealed nothing. They wanted me to get an upper scope of my GI tract, but they referred all of this to my GI specialist here in Oregon and the motility dr. in Cincinnati.
December
1st-14th, my parents and I traveled a second
time to Cincinnati Children’s Hospital Medical Center. I was admitted to the GI unit of the hospital for tests that could only be done inpatient.
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| All of this was for the GI manometry testing! |
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| And this is what it looked like on the computer screen. |
I also had a lot of outpatient tests/appointments with cardiology, orthopaedics, pulmonology, genetics, and neurology. Based on my genetic results, the doctors also think that I have a rare genetic neuromuscular disorder called Congenital Myasthenic Syndrome. This is on top of the mitochondrial disease.. They already started me on a cholinesterase inhibitor drug to slow the progression.
This has been a tough year for all of us, but your prayers/support and the Lord’s grace has sustained us through it all!
I don’t know what 2014 will bring….maybe it will be an easier year….or maybe there will be new trials and tests. But this I know 100%: my Lord and Savior is always always good, sovereign, steadfast, and faithful!
“Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice insofar as you share Christ’s sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed.”
I Peter 4:12-13
"I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world." -John 16:33-
Dear friends, I’d really appreciate your continued prayers. 🥺 Thank you for being on this journey with me through the good and bad. ❤️ Last year, I had a sleep study where I shared that I was diagnosed with moderate Central Sleep-Disordered Breathing (central apnea happens when the brain doesn’t tell your body to initiate breaths). It was noted that I stopped breathing about 17 times per hour. Well, my neurologist wanted me to get yet another sleep study last month to make sure this neck weakness hasn’t caused worsening apnea. And I’m sad to share that the results were much worse than last year’s. :( I thought last year was bad, but this latest study shows that I stopped breathing more than 40 times per hour (almost 400 times total through the whole night). 🥺 This was hard to hear and also such a reminder that God is the one who gives us “the breath of life” (Genesis 2:7) every minute. It’s by his mercy that we wake up to each new day. ☀️ What makes my case complex is that my esophageal sphincter has been affected by the mitochondrial disorder—it’s weak, so when air from a sleep machine is pushed down into my lungs, bad throat gurgling happens which keeps me up at night because my esophageal sphincter can’t close all the way like it should. :( My appointment with the rheumatologist was yesterday, and I wish I could say she gave a concrete diagnosis of what’s been happening these last several months…but that wasn’t the case. 🥺 I have to get more specific labs done. She also ordered x-rays of my hands and feet to check for possible spots of rheumatoid arthritis or calcinosis. The doctor said sometimes a new condition happens gradually, and it’s a wait-and-see type of situation. 😥 If these additional tests and labs still don’t give a clear cut answer, I’m so glad I have a second opinion with another rheumatologist at the end of June. This one sounds especially good because he’s a DO (doctor of osteopathic medicine) and offers a whole-body approach regarding treatment. Could you please pray something can be done soon as my quality of life continues to be rough, and these latest symptoms have been going on for half a year now. :’( Hard to believe October was 6 months ago! All this time, I’ve just been waiting.. I did ask my PCP at one of my appointments if he ever orders treatment for something even without a definite diagnosis, and he said “yes” which was encouraging to hear. His family leave is almost over, so I see him again soon. Just finished a virtual follow-up with another one of my amazing doctors this afternoon. 💜 She knows a very specialized neurologist in Washington who has his own private practice. She wants me to see him and hopes he’ll be able to connect all the dots and see the bigger picture. So blessed by all of my many doctors who try their best to help me! 🥲 I started the process in applying to the Undiagnosed Diseases program through Harvard (it got pretty delayed because of my 2 mitochondrial crashes in November and December). My application has been assigned to the Seattle clinical site. Please pray that the doctors who review my case will be able to accept me as a patient and find the genetic defect causing my mitochondrial depletion. The UDN acceptance rate is about 40%.. I saw this quote recently by Martin Luther and just had to hand letter it (so thankful for one of my neurologists who increased the anti-seizure medication which has been helping to decrease my hand tremors). ❤️ This statement by Martin Luther is such a beautiful reminder. All that’s happened lately has been the hardest trial, but I’m praying that I will persevere and bear this cross daily to bring honor to the Lord. I know my life is in his loving hands. I’m thankful for God’s promises in Romans 8:28–“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” ✨
Hi, friends, I went to see my neuromuscular neurologist in Seattle last month, and since there are no neuromuscular specialists here in Oregon willing to see me, he kindly placed a referral for me to see a neurologist he trained who practices in Vancouver, WA! That appointment was originally scheduled for late April, but this new doctor moved it way up, and I was able to see him at the end of January! 😊 I’m so grateful for him, and he seems knowledgeable about mito. He told us that I “am easily the most complex patient he has ever seen.” 😥 I had to get a very painful test completed called an EMG (electromygraphy). It involves having big needles (larger/thicker than acupuncture needles) placed and pushed repeatedly into my neck and shoulder muscles. 😢 Hurt so bad!! I’ve had this done more than once on both legs, but it was much more painful on the neck! He wanted this test to check for active myositis since my MRI was inconclusive. Well, the results show that this progressive neck weakness is due to mitochondrial disease progression, and not from myositis. Whenever I have a “mito crash,” I’m usually able to slowly bounce back afterwards with time. But since I’m not recovering, he explained there’s degeneration going on and that my mitochondria are dying. That was hard to hear. 😢 We may have an idea why my condition is worsening quickly.. I received results from an extensive autoimmune panel which shows that 2 labs came back abnormal for a potential lupus diagnosis. We’re not positive I have it as I need more tests done, but my neurologist said that could definitely be what’s causing this mito progression. I have to see rheumatology now, but unfortunately, OHSU denied to see me. In my previous post, I mentioned that my pain doctor referred me to palliative care. Well, they, too, turned me down…. It’s just hard to fathom that multiple specialties at THE top hospital in Oregon won’t see me because I’m too complex…it’s so isolating and lonely. 🥺 Since my PCP has a new baby girl and is out on leave for 2 months again, I’m so grateful for my GI specialist’s help—it was kind of him to place a referral for me to see a rheumatologist at Providence. That appointment is in April. Please pray my whole medical team will be able to find out the cause of why I have harmful antibodies in my blood. It has now been 4 1/2 months since this all started. Time seems to crawl, yet at the same time, pass by quickly. My mitochondrial symptoms continue to worsen. For example, if I have a virtual visit with one of my doctors, just lying in my recliner and talking to them for 20 minutes causes horrible nystagmus afterwords. 😭 If it’s true there’s something autoimmune going on like lupus, it’s using up all the limited energy I have.. 😔 Could you also pray that the mitochondrial disease progression will slow down? I wanted to share an answer to prayer—you may recall I posted last month that my Seattle neurologist sent a new referral for me to see my mitochondrial specialist in San Diego as it’s been 4 years since I last saw him. Well, even though he’s semi-retired, I’m so happy to say that he accepted me which is a blessing from God! Isn’t that so wonderful? 🥹 He’s booked out ‘til September! But I’m not physically well enough to see him now anyways, so we’re praying my health will show some improvement 7+ months from now and I can travel then.. The Lord recently led me to The Tapestry poem written by Corrie Ten Boom. If you aren’t familiar with her, she was a faithful Christian during World War 2 who survived Auschwitz and the holocaust! You may have read this poem before, but knowing her testimony and how she had to go through extremely hard trials makes The Tapestry even more meaningful/impactful. ❤️ She is an example to me, and I hope this is an encouragement to you as well: “My life is but a weaving Between my God and me. I cannot choose the colors He weaveth steadily. Oft’ times He weaveth sorrow; And I in foolish pride Forget He sees the upper And I the underside. Not ‘til the loom is silent And the shuttles cease to fly Will God unroll the canvas And reveal the reason why. The dark threads are as needful In the weaver’s skillful hand As the threads of gold and silver In the pattern He has planned. He knows, He loves, He cares; Nothing this truth can dim. He gives the very best to those Who leave the choice to Him.” -Corrie Ten Boom
