More Hard News

Kerissa Lee • September 14, 2024

"Weeping may tarry for the night,

but joy comes with the morning."

Psalm 30:5




Dear friends,


I received some more hard news these last few weeks, and I would be ever so grateful for your continued prayers. πŸ₯Ί


I shared in my last post that one of my doctors referred me to a movement neurologist for my tremor. Well, the referral was rejected once again, and when I was told that, I burst into tears. I just feel so alone when doctors don’t want to see me. :’( And it breaks my heart when I’m not able to get help for my symptoms just because I have a “rare disease they don’t treat.” I’m trying to give this movement neurologist the benefit of the doubt—maybe there’s an actual review board that looks at referrals before sending them off to the appropriate sub specialty. So maybe my referral never even reached this specific neurologist? I told my physical therapist who’s been part of the movement disorders team, and he is going to try to get in touch with the dr. and advocate for me. I don’t know what to do if he still won’t see me. I even tried to see a movement neurologist from a different healthcare system (outside of OHSU), but he isn’t accepting external referrals. 😒


I heard back from the metabolic geneticist. She was able to talk with the biochemical geneticist in Colorado, and sadly, he doesn’t have an IRB (institutional review board)-approved protocol yet which is needed to start the proteomics research study. I’m waiting to hear if he gave her an estimated timeline..


On top of all this, my port site started getting tender, swollen, and bruised. We don’t know what’s causing this since my labs are perfect, but we’re praying the site doesn’t develop an infection later on. Because my port site started looking worse these last few days, I have to stop using my port, and my GI dr. ordered a PICC line to be placed urgently. 😭 My heart is so weary from dealing with one thing after another. πŸ˜”


Needing a PICC again is a huge disappointment because my family and I are going to Hawaii in 3 weeks to celebrate my parents’ 40th wedding anniversary. And all these months leading up to it, I was so excited to take advantage of having a port vs. a central line—one can swim with a de-accessed port. Now that I have to get a PICC, I can’t swim or even try snorkeling. πŸ₯Ί You’re probably thinking to just enjoy being in Hawaii! Yes, I am SO happy that we’ll get to all be together as a family. But I’m also sad, too, at the moment because this is just another reminder how difficult it is to live daily with such a rare disease like mito.. I wish for just one day that I could have a break from all medical things. That’s why I continually long for Heaven. I will no longer have a broken body!


I don’t know why this couldn’t have happened until after our family trip. 😒 But one thing I do know—God wants me to keep trusting Him even through the numerous questions. ❀️


My heart was so encouraged through Lysa Terkeurst’s recent words, “If we stand firm on His goodness and know everything He allows is somehow flowing from that goodness, then we will have a lot less fear in trusting Him. Faith in God means being assured of His goodness even when what He allows doesn’t feel good, seem good, or look good right now.”


There are other medical issues going on which I will share in a future post. But, in the meantime, I’m trying to entrust all things to God’s loving care. “Therefore let those who suffer according to God’s will entrust their souls to a faithful Creator while doing good” (1 Peter 4:19). ❀️

By Kerissa Lee April 16, 2026
Hi, friends, I just wanted to write an update on what’s happened since my last post. Sadly, the 2 different tube changes haven’t helped, and there’s still so much leaking around the tube. πŸ™ The abdominal pain was decreasing each day, but for some reason, it has ramped up again and has been steadily getting worse the last several days. The pain is sharp and throbbing—it also hurts to use my abdominal muscles. I saw my primary care dr. this past Friday, and he ordered an urgent CT scan. I had that done this past Monday, and the scan shows that the balloon on the tube is lodged in my abdominal wall (it’s called buried bumper syndrome). πŸ˜₯ So painful, but I’m thankful for answers! I actually had this issue many years ago, and usually, changing the tube size helps. But we’ve already tried 2 different tube sizes in March which hasn’t helped. I don’t know if the tract got damaged or what.. My PCP messaged the surgery team twice now, but they’re not responding still. Ever since my general surgeon left OHSU 2ish years ago to practice in New Orleans, it hasn’t been a good transfer to a different team. 😒 In addition, the CT scan also revealed that I have ground glass opacities in my left lung, so I have to go through work-up for that as well to figure out the cause.. Aside from these latest issues, I’m praising God that my mitochondrial disease has been stable still!! So thankful for God’s grace and faithfulness. The day I got my CT results, I read this excerpt below from one of Joni Eareckson Tada’s daily devotionals, and it was like the Lord was speaking right to my heart. I hope it’s an encouragement to you. ❀️ “Present pain and afflictions tend to heighten future joy. When is peace the sweetest? Right after the conflict. When does a cold drink taste best? When you’ve become very thirsty. When do you appreciate rest the most? After hours of hard labor. When is joyful company most pleasant? After enduring long days of loneliness. The truth is, our recollection of past sufferings may one day enhance the bliss of heaven. Eternity with the Lord will be so much more heavenly to those of us whose faith has been tested, battered, and tried, time and again.” -Joni Eareckson Tada One more thing.. I’d really love prayers for my uncle (my dad’s older brother). He’s been very sick in the neuro ICU with serious issues. First pneumonia, then bacteria in his spine which later broke his back. He had a major spinal surgery but still can’t move his legs. πŸ₯Ί On top of that, his kidneys started failing, so he had to be placed on continuous dialysis. He also had to be put on a ventilator due to fluid in his lungs. Then, he still couldn’t breathe well, so he had to get a tracheostomy tube placed in his neck. πŸ₯Ί Despite all this, he and his family are so strong and trusting the Lord which is a huge testimony to all of us and to the ICU. Could you please pray for peace, strength, and healing over his body? I know he and his family would be so grateful for your prayers. πŸ’™ P.S. I wish I could show you my foster nephew’s sweet face in this photo from Easter Sunday! He is now 9 months old—the most precious and adorable little boy!! Our lives are so much sweeter with him in it. πŸ₯Ή
By Kerissa Lee March 31, 2026
Dear Dr. Phillips, There aren’t enough words to express how thankful I am to have had such an amazing GI doctor like you these past 13 years. I think of all the hard challenges that have happened starting at age 20 and beyond: experiencing GI dysmotility, not being able to eat “normal” foods without terrible abdominal pain/distention, only tolerating soft consistencies like baby food pouches (which was not fun as a 22 year old!), needing an NJ tube placed down my nose, having a jejunostomy tube surgically placed, then no longer tolerating tube feeds, dropping down to 77 pounds, getting admitted the day after Christmas to start TPN, being surprised by the extremely high copper levels on my liver biopsy and starting treatment for that, going through septic shock which caused ischemic hepatitis (remember when my liver function test was 1674!), having sepsis 5 other times from multiple central lines and ports, requiring urgent surgery to remove my gallbladder, needing D10 added to my IV fluids for numerous mitochondrial crashes, and much more. Through all the highs and lows, you were there for me, and I truly feel like I hit the “doctor jackpot” to have had a GI specialist as caring, compassionate, knowledgeable, and kind as you. I shed quite a few tears to my chagrin at my last in-person appointment with you in February 2026, and I still do as I reminisce and write this letter. But, they aren’t just tears of sadness. They are also tears of gratitude—I know this journey would have been much more difficult if I didn’t have your wonderful care and support all these years. I’m so happy that I was able to get off of TPN back then after 5 years of being on it. Not only that, but I’m so thankful that I can eat orally to my heart’s content without pain and abdominal distention. I know that’s in part due to you, so thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you so very much for caring for me. I will never forget you, and I wish you all the best as you start your retirement. :’) With immense gratitude, Kerissa
By Kerissa Lee March 17, 2026
"God is always doing more than we know, working toward a good we will one day rejoice in." -Lysa Terkeurst