A Bump in the Road

Kerissa • June 15, 2012

Today I went through my first session of biofeedback!  I’m so thankful the pain psychologist that I saw today is down-to-earth and a “bread and butter, meat and potatoes kind of guy” as my pain dr. puts it.  He explained biofeedback and diaphragmatic breathing so well that we went right into trying the machine on me.  It didn’t hurt at all!  He stuck three electrodes on my left trapezius muscle and on my right because that is where the most muscle tension develops.  Sitting down and using different relaxation techniques, I looked at a moving computer graph that recorded my muscle tension and temperature of my left pinkie finger.

Normal range of muscle tension: below 5 points
My muscle tension: over 22 points  (this surprised all of us!!)

Normal hand temperature range: in the 90s
My hand temperature: around 77 degrees! :O

So for the next 45 minutes, I tried lowering those really high numbers in all kinds of different ways!  My temperature went up to about 83 degrees, but my muscle tension number barely lowered one bit!  I didn’t feel that tense, but from those biofeedback numbers, it gave all of us the picture that I have a lot of work to do about this!

Near the end of my appointment, I thought I’d turn off my spinal cord stimulator to see if that would change any of the numbers.  Right when I brushed my magnet near the battery in my back to turn it off, the muscle tension numbers dropped DRAMATICALLY to a range of 3!!!  I laughed out loud!  This is what was causing the high numbers!  I felt so relieved.  With a chuckle, the dr. explained that the electrodes must have been taking in all the stimulation from the SCS device, thus causing the high numbers!

At home, I will still be working on these techniques that he taught me.  He is SO booked up right now, that my next scheduled appointment with him is on August 15th!!

Right after seeing him, I rushed down to the first floor for my weekly session of physical therapy.  It was SO painful!  For some reason, my neck hasn’t been turning left or right very well at all, so my therapist has been trying everything he knows to fix this new problem.  It’s hard work!

And this past Friday, I banged/nicked my left index finger on the sharp edge of a shelf while putting something away, so now it’s been hurting more.  It had to be the left index finger of all places..  My finger joints are stiff again and a little swollen, so next week, my physical therapist will probably take me to the hand therapy department so that I can again stick my arm in the “ground corn husks” machine to warm my hand up and try to loosen the stiff joints.  Praying this will help!  This new “injury” is just another reminder to me that I need to totally depend on Christ whether I’m doing well one day or back to “square one” the next day.  He is sovereign!  And I need to do my part by surrendering to His will and letting Him guide my circumstances.  This is a learning process for sure.  But God is faithful!  And He will help me through this small bump in the road!

Have a blessed weekend, my friends!

By Kerissa Lee April 16, 2026
Hi, friends, I just wanted to write an update on what’s happened since my last post. Sadly, the 2 different tube changes haven’t helped, and there’s still so much leaking around the tube. 🙁 The abdominal pain was decreasing each day, but for some reason, it has ramped up again and has been steadily getting worse the last several days. The pain is sharp and throbbing—it also hurts to use my abdominal muscles. I saw my primary care dr. this past Friday, and he ordered an urgent CT scan. I had that done this past Monday, and the scan shows that the balloon on the tube is lodged in my abdominal wall (it’s called buried bumper syndrome). 😥 So painful, but I’m thankful for answers! I actually had this issue many years ago, and usually, changing the tube size helps. But we’ve already tried 2 different tube sizes in March which hasn’t helped. I don’t know if the tract got damaged or what.. My PCP messaged the surgery team twice now, but they’re not responding still. Ever since my general surgeon left OHSU 2ish years ago to practice in New Orleans, it hasn’t been a good transfer to a different team. 😢 In addition, the CT scan also revealed that I have ground glass opacities in my left lung, so I have to go through work-up for that as well to figure out the cause.. Aside from these latest issues, I’m praising God that my mitochondrial disease has been stable still!! So thankful for God’s grace and faithfulness. The day I got my CT results, I read this excerpt below from one of Joni Eareckson Tada’s daily devotionals, and it was like the Lord was speaking right to my heart. I hope it’s an encouragement to you. ❤️ “Present pain and afflictions tend to heighten future joy. When is peace the sweetest? Right after the conflict. When does a cold drink taste best? When you’ve become very thirsty. When do you appreciate rest the most? After hours of hard labor. When is joyful company most pleasant? After enduring long days of loneliness. The truth is, our recollection of past sufferings may one day enhance the bliss of heaven. Eternity with the Lord will be so much more heavenly to those of us whose faith has been tested, battered, and tried, time and again.” -Joni Eareckson Tada One more thing.. I’d really love prayers for my uncle (my dad’s older brother). He’s been very sick in the neuro ICU with serious issues. First pneumonia, then bacteria in his spine which later broke his back. He had a major spinal surgery but still can’t move his legs. 🥺 On top of that, his kidneys started failing, so he had to be placed on continuous dialysis. He also had to be put on a ventilator due to fluid in his lungs. Then, he still couldn’t breathe well, so he had to get a tracheostomy tube placed in his neck. 🥺 Despite all this, he and his family are so strong and trusting the Lord which is a huge testimony to all of us and to the ICU. Could you please pray for peace, strength, and healing over his body? I know he and his family would be so grateful for your prayers. 💙 P.S. I wish I could show you my foster nephew’s sweet face in this photo from Easter Sunday! He is now 9 months old—the most precious and adorable little boy!! Our lives are so much sweeter with him in it. 🥹
By Kerissa Lee March 31, 2026
Dear Dr. Phillips, There aren’t enough words to express how thankful I am to have had such an amazing GI doctor like you these past 13 years. I think of all the hard challenges that have happened starting at age 20 and beyond: experiencing GI dysmotility, not being able to eat “normal” foods without terrible abdominal pain/distention, only tolerating soft consistencies like baby food pouches (which was not fun as a 22 year old!), needing an NJ tube placed down my nose, having a jejunostomy tube surgically placed, then no longer tolerating tube feeds, dropping down to 77 pounds, getting admitted the day after Christmas to start TPN, being surprised by the extremely high copper levels on my liver biopsy and starting treatment for that, going through septic shock which caused ischemic hepatitis (remember when my liver function test was 1674!), having sepsis 5 other times from multiple central lines and ports, requiring urgent surgery to remove my gallbladder, needing D10 added to my IV fluids for numerous mitochondrial crashes, and much more. Through all the highs and lows, you were there for me, and I truly feel like I hit the “doctor jackpot” to have had a GI specialist as caring, compassionate, knowledgeable, and kind as you. I shed quite a few tears to my chagrin at my last in-person appointment with you in February 2026, and I still do as I reminisce and write this letter. But, they aren’t just tears of sadness. They are also tears of gratitude—I know this journey would have been much more difficult if I didn’t have your wonderful care and support all these years. I’m so happy that I was able to get off of TPN back then after 5 years of being on it. Not only that, but I’m so thankful that I can eat orally to my heart’s content without pain and abdominal distention. I know that’s in part due to you, so thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you so very much for caring for me. I will never forget you, and I wish you all the best as you start your retirement. :’) With immense gratitude, Kerissa
By Kerissa Lee March 17, 2026
"God is always doing more than we know, working toward a good we will one day rejoice in." -Lysa Terkeurst