Hard days

Kerissa • September 1, 2020

Dear friends,

Thank you soo much for your texts, prayers, comments, and messages on my last post.  I’m sorry I haven’t been able to respond to them, but please know that I am so encouraged and blessed by you. ❤   It has been a very hard past 6 days here in the hospital.  Wednesday night around 1:30 AM was so scary…..after I received my first bag of IV N-Acetyl Cysteine (and the nurse was starting the second dose), my heart rate suddenly started pounding/beating super fast, I got very hot/feverish, I felt like I was going to vomit, my chest was really tight, and I couldn’t breathe well.  At first, I thought I was getting sepsis again, but my nurse thought I was having anxiety..  I told her that I don’t have anxiety.  She then noticed that my ears were super red, she checked my skin and saw that I was very blotchy all over….it turns out that I was having a severe anaphylactic reaction to the NAC!   I was really disappointed that I couldn’t keep receiving this antioxidant but also thankful to the Lord and His amazing providence.  Before making the decision to get admitted, my doctor was initially going to have me try the IV NAC at home, but God knew I needed to be in the hospital.  He truly knows what we can’t see. ❤

Since that allergic reaction, it took so much out of me physically, and I’m feeling even worse than when I got admitted.   So very weak and shaky all over (it’s taking me many breaks to type this), the pain has been horrible (it was a 9 more than once and I cried so much ), and more.

But, my doctors have adjusted my pain regimen, and I can now receive IV pain meds every 2 hours, my lab work is looking better than before, and my right eye is not as droopy as it used to be (my left eye is not doing too well—I can’t look to the left and that’s causing double vision, but we’re praying it will get better with time..).

So much waiting going on over here…waiting for the pain to resolve…waiting for my strength to come back…waiting for my eyes to track better…waiting to go home…  And it’s hard not to get discouraged. But all of this has been a huge reminder to fully “wait for the Lord” in every single circumstance.

“I waited patiently for the LORD; he inclined to me and heard my cry.” – Psalm 40:1

“Our soul waits for the LORD; he is our help and our shield.” – Psalm 33:20

“O LORD, be gracious to us; we wait for you. Be our arm every morning, our salvation in the time of trouble.” – Isaiah 33:2

Thank you all for continually lifting me up in prayer during this bump in the road!   I am so grateful to God for you. ❤❤

P.S. Just an FYI, I lettered the verse above a while back, not recently…  Too weak now to even write my name with a pen (I had to sign my name yesterday for some paperwork that my mom fills out weekly, and it was so hard!).  This means no writing Punkpost cards for a while or hand lettering new pieces.

By Kerissa Lee April 16, 2026
Hi, friends, I just wanted to write an update on what’s happened since my last post. Sadly, the 2 different tube changes haven’t helped, and there’s still so much leaking around the tube. 🙁 The abdominal pain was decreasing each day, but for some reason, it has ramped up again and has been steadily getting worse the last several days. The pain is sharp and throbbing—it also hurts to use my abdominal muscles. I saw my primary care dr. this past Friday, and he ordered an urgent CT scan. I had that done this past Monday, and the scan shows that the balloon on the tube is lodged in my abdominal wall (it’s called buried bumper syndrome). 😥 So painful, but I’m thankful for answers! I actually had this issue many years ago, and usually, changing the tube size helps. But we’ve already tried 2 different tube sizes in March which hasn’t helped. I don’t know if the tract got damaged or what.. My PCP messaged the surgery team twice now, but they’re not responding still. Ever since my general surgeon left OHSU 2ish years ago to practice in New Orleans, it hasn’t been a good transfer to a different team. 😢 In addition, the CT scan also revealed that I have ground glass opacities in my left lung, so I have to go through work-up for that as well to figure out the cause.. Aside from these latest issues, I’m praising God that my mitochondrial disease has been stable still!! So thankful for God’s grace and faithfulness. The day I got my CT results, I read this excerpt below from one of Joni Eareckson Tada’s daily devotionals, and it was like the Lord was speaking right to my heart. I hope it’s an encouragement to you. ❤️ “Present pain and afflictions tend to heighten future joy. When is peace the sweetest? Right after the conflict. When does a cold drink taste best? When you’ve become very thirsty. When do you appreciate rest the most? After hours of hard labor. When is joyful company most pleasant? After enduring long days of loneliness. The truth is, our recollection of past sufferings may one day enhance the bliss of heaven. Eternity with the Lord will be so much more heavenly to those of us whose faith has been tested, battered, and tried, time and again.” -Joni Eareckson Tada One more thing.. I’d really love prayers for my uncle (my dad’s older brother). He’s been very sick in the neuro ICU with serious issues. First pneumonia, then bacteria in his spine which later broke his back. He had a major spinal surgery but still can’t move his legs. 🥺 On top of that, his kidneys started failing, so he had to be placed on continuous dialysis. He also had to be put on a ventilator due to fluid in his lungs. Then, he still couldn’t breathe well, so he had to get a tracheostomy tube placed in his neck. 🥺 Despite all this, he and his family are so strong and trusting the Lord which is a huge testimony to all of us and to the ICU. Could you please pray for peace, strength, and healing over his body? I know he and his family would be so grateful for your prayers. 💙 P.S. I wish I could show you my foster nephew’s sweet face in this photo from Easter Sunday! He is now 9 months old—the most precious and adorable little boy!! Our lives are so much sweeter with him in it. 🥹
By Kerissa Lee March 31, 2026
Dear Dr. Phillips, There aren’t enough words to express how thankful I am to have had such an amazing GI doctor like you these past 13 years. I think of all the hard challenges that have happened starting at age 20 and beyond: experiencing GI dysmotility, not being able to eat “normal” foods without terrible abdominal pain/distention, only tolerating soft consistencies like baby food pouches (which was not fun as a 22 year old!), needing an NJ tube placed down my nose, having a jejunostomy tube surgically placed, then no longer tolerating tube feeds, dropping down to 77 pounds, getting admitted the day after Christmas to start TPN, being surprised by the extremely high copper levels on my liver biopsy and starting treatment for that, going through septic shock which caused ischemic hepatitis (remember when my liver function test was 1674!), having sepsis 5 other times from multiple central lines and ports, requiring urgent surgery to remove my gallbladder, needing D10 added to my IV fluids for numerous mitochondrial crashes, and much more. Through all the highs and lows, you were there for me, and I truly feel like I hit the “doctor jackpot” to have had a GI specialist as caring, compassionate, knowledgeable, and kind as you. I shed quite a few tears to my chagrin at my last in-person appointment with you in February 2026, and I still do as I reminisce and write this letter. But, they aren’t just tears of sadness. They are also tears of gratitude—I know this journey would have been much more difficult if I didn’t have your wonderful care and support all these years. I’m so happy that I was able to get off of TPN back then after 5 years of being on it. Not only that, but I’m so thankful that I can eat orally to my heart’s content without pain and abdominal distention. I know that’s in part due to you, so thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you so very much for caring for me. I will never forget you, and I wish you all the best as you start your retirement. :’) With immense gratitude, Kerissa
By Kerissa Lee March 17, 2026
"God is always doing more than we know, working toward a good we will one day rejoice in." -Lysa Terkeurst