Part 1- My first visit to the ER/first admission to OHSU

Kerissa • September 18, 2013

Around this time one year ago, I was in the hospital!  I never fully blogged about those long weeks because it was too fresh in my mind, but to bring more awareness about mito, I will tell you the story.

It was a Wednesday.  September 5th, 2012.  To this day, I still don’t know what caused that severe headache.  Maybe it was stress…  A couple weeks before, I began volunteering in my local hospital’s neonatal intensive care unit.  At the time, volunteering didn’t seem stressful to me, but I was still getting used to walking long periods (the spinal cord stimulator I had implanted a year before helped the CRPS pain, but being on my feet for several hours once again aggravated the CRPS and I had flare-ups while volunteering).  Also, I was fighting a cold.

Anyway, that Wednesday evening, I started experiencing a terrible headache at the base of my skull.  I was confused.  I never got headaches!  OTCs like Advil and Aleve didn’t help at all, so those next several days were a struggle.  6 days later, I noticed that my left eyelid was drooping.  I thought it was because I was tired, so I took a nap.  That didn’t help.  Trying not to freak out, I saw my pain dr. that day for a follow-up.  Immediately, he noticed that the droop wasn’t normal.  Thinking that this was possibly due to my cervical instability (I had x-rays a few weeks before for radicular neck pain which showed I have mild anterolisthesis due to EDS), he sent an urgent referral for me to be seen by a spine specialist.  They still couldn’t fit me in for another week, so I headed home, my eye and headaches not feeling any better.  On Friday, my eyelid droop was bothering me so much!  I kept thinking, “What’s going on??”  So my mom called the dr.-on-call at the spine center and told of my predicament.  The resident sent me to the ER, explaining that any facial-related symptoms could be serious.

The attending physician at Doernbecher’s ER wanted me to get some MRIs, but because I had a metal implant in my back, that was contraindicated.  We were in a dilemma.  My pain dr. didn’t want me to get a CT scan because of the high-dose radiation, but the dr. in the ER said that was the only thing we could do.  Despite the risks, I decided on the CT scan, so Dr. M ordered a brain CT and one of my cervical spine (both without contrast dye).  CT scans are incredibly fast, and we had results in no time!  Imagine my dismay went they both came back normal.  I got sent home but had no clue how I’d “make it” another day.

Saturday, my drooping eyelid got even worse to the point that my vision was blocked.  I was miserable, trying to deal with that, worsening headaches, neck pain, and several canker sores in my mouth.  This time, my mom called the dr.-on-call who worked with my pain specialist.  They recommended that I head back to the ER, and they even told the ER that I was coming.  *sigh*

That second ER visit was like night and day!  When I arrived there, I was thrust into a different world.  I remember having 7 tubes of blood drawn.  I wasn’t allowed to eat or drink.  I had to have a bladder scan and urinalysis.  A 3rd year neurology resident came to see me.  I had countless neuro exams (checking strength, reflexes, etc.) by her and a medical student.  I had no idea that I was hyperreflexic throughout and my left leg was completely weak…I couldn’t even resist her pressure.  I was so shocked that I had a weak leg.

When my parents asked her what she thought was going on, she mentioned that I could have an autoimmune neuromuscular disease called Myasthenia Gravis (which means “grave muscle weakness”) or Multiple Sclerosis but that I need to go through further neurological work-up.  When she left the room, I looked both conditions up online.  Reading the list of symptoms, mine didn’t fully match with either of them.  It was a complete mystery, and I hated that I was so complicated.

Other than a sweet visit from my pain dr. and one from a family friend, the minutes slowly crept by.  At 1:00 AM, I was still in the ER.  My nurse came to wheel me to Radiology where I had 2 more CT scans but this time with contrast dye.  I definitely didn’t want more radiation, but the doctors really wanted more images to check for stroke or carotid artery dissection.  Contrast dye for CT is totally different from that used for MRIs.  When the tech injected the dye into an IV, it felt like burning hot liquid traveling through my body from head to toe.

*side note: I later learned that one CT scan is like standing non-stop in the sun for 20 months.  Ugh.  That meant the 4 CT scans I had would be like standing in the sun for 80 months (more than 6 1/2 years).  In my hospital bed, I kept seeing a lot of my hair stuck to the sheets.  If I could travel back to that time now, I would have declined the 2 additional CTs.*

At 3 AM Sunday morning, I finally got admitted to my own hospital room on 10K, the neurology floor.  Dead tired, I slipped into the bed sheets without even brushing my teeth or eating something.  I was NPO in the ER, so I didn’t eat food for more than 14 hours.

I woke up at 6 that morning, hungry and needing to use the restroom.  It was still dark out, so I ate a CLIF bar that I had brought in my bag.  I then dozed off for about an hour.  A tech later came to wheel me to Radiology once again where I had 2 chest x-rays.  If I did have Myasthenia Gravis like the doctors wondered, they wanted to take a look at my lungs and see if I had trouble breathing.

My case was very difficult to the doctors.  I had no fatigueable component to my muscles which can indicate MG, but the fact that my drooping eyelid was slightly better that day made things challenging as Myasthenia Gravis can present with intermittent weakness.  But since they were still waiting on pending blood work, the doctors believed I was safe for discharge home.  I was glad!

Up next: Part 2!

By Kerissa Lee January 3, 2026
Dear friends, As I reflect back on 2025, January started off looking very bleak. I had just recovered from yet another “mitochondrial crash” in December 2024, but my neck weakness was still significant and unresolved. I mentioned this many times, but I’ve never before experienced such severe muscle pain in my neck—it felt like my neck was doing a constant “plank exercise” 24/7. I cried so much and needed relief. 😭 Before this, I also truly took for granted how vital neck muscles are for ALL movement. Even simply standing requires neck strength to hold the head up. I was confined to my bed and the recliner because the neck weakness/pain was so debilitating. At the beginning of January was my long-awaited appointment with the neuromuscular neurologist at the University of Washington. But, the outcome was very disappointing because he simply took these symptoms to mean mitochondrial disease progression. My eyes are watering and my nose stings as I type this with emotion because I didn’t know (like I do now) what the following months would hold. I really did wonder if I was starting to die because not only did I have this disabling neck weakness but I also experienced severe nystagmus every single day (it never happened this frequently before). The brain is what controls eye movement, so my brain wasn’t getting enough energy needed for the simple act of moving the eyes. In February, after several blood tests came back with more “bad” autoimmune markers and I also started dealing with unusual joint pain in both elbows and shoulders, one of my doctors had me start taking 2 powerful antioxidants: N-Acetyl Cysteine (NAC) and Liposomal Glutathione. NAC, specifically, has shown that it can be beneficial for Lupus, an autoimmune disorder. We weren’t sure yet if my symptoms were early signs of Lupus, but my doctor recommended these antioxidants anyways for the mitochondrial depletion. When May came around, I once again had another “mito crash” with significant muscle weakness all over my body (not just in my neck), droopy eyelids, nausea, and increased pain. I was so thankful, though, that we were able to manage this one at home and I didn’t need to be admitted! Even more amazing was the fact that this was the month I noticed I could slightly lift my head half an inch off of the pillow (when lying down). Was God healing my neck? 🥹 June was a big month. As many of you know, 2 separate muscle biopsies show that I have Mitochondrial DNA Depletion Syndrome, but the doctors still can’t pinpoint the genetic mutation responsible for this depletion. So the OHSU metabolic team and I all wrote letters to apply to the NIH Undiagnosed Diseases Network (UDN). And God answered the first of many prayers as my case was surprisingly accepted. 🥲 I don’t currently have a recent update regarding this study as they told us it could take months or even years for anything to happen if anything happens at all (I should email them for an update). Last I heard, the team was analyzing all of my raw genetic data. At the end of June, my internal medicine doctor referred me to the Complex Pain clinic since I was still experiencing so much pain and needing high doses of pain meds. The specialist started me on Buprenorphine, but it’s been a rough go of it. It definitely helps the pain to become more manageable (another answer to prayer!), but it also causes horrible insomnia which I’m still dealing with. 😞 My sleep specialist said I’m basically experiencing a bad case of chronic jet lag—I’m simply exhausted and cannot fall asleep until 4:30-6:00 AM! 😭 A previous blog post shares about the “catch 22” I’m in. I’d so appreciate continued prayer for my sleep. It’s been very hard. :( July through September was amazing as I noticed that my neck weakness had improved a little more each day to the point that it eventually fully resolved….!! I truly could cry tears of joy and gratitude! 🥹🥹 Even my physical therapist started noticing that I didn’t have to hold my head up with my hands when moving around! God answered everyone’s prayers, and I fully believe he miraculously healed me in this area!! Yes, it could be that the 2 antioxidants helped, or it could be that I had finally recovered 9+ months later from something like Viral Myositis of the neck from fighting a viral infection in Hawaii in October 2024. My doctors just don’t know fully. But I am in awe at God’s lovingkindness and great mercy. 🥹❤️ 2 verses come to mind... One is from Ephesians 2:4–“But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us..” And the other is Philippians 2:27–“Indeed he was ill, near to death. But God had mercy on him..” The phrase “But God” sticks out to me. It reminds me that God is the one who has a plan and purpose for our lives, and it may be totally different than what we think is best or what we’d like. I don’t know what I would say or how I would act if the neck weakness still persisted to this day.. It would be extremely hard, and I know I would struggle greatly mentally and spiritually. But I also know 100% that God would faithfully sustain me like he did during those long, dark months from October 2024 to May 2025 and on.. God’s mercy continues to be so evident as I’m physically in even better shape than I was back in 2023. 🥹 Aside from my sleep, I’m doing so well that I might even have to find a part time job sometime down the road! I don’t know how long this “stable” period will last, and I know life could quickly change again in the blink of an eye (like it has in the past).. But, while I’m stable, I’m having the MOST JOY feeling quite “normal” and being strong enough/having the energy to babysit my almost 6-month old foster nephew. 💙 He’s over 17 pounds now, and every time I hold him, it’s such a GIFT from the Lord to have the muscle strength for carrying/lifting him! I wanted to end this on a joyous note by sharing one last thing that happened in 2025–the opening of my Pain With Purpose Shop around my 33rd birthday this past October! ☺️ It’s a joy selling my handlettered designs (just a heads-up, my card inventory clearance sale ends on the 5th!). 😊 It’s also SO special that my church’s Care Ministry can send encouragement cards I’ve designed to those in our church body who are experiencing suffering. This gives me a little purpose since it’s sometimes hard not to feel useless living with a chronic illness (I’m sure many of you who are suffering can definitely relate..). 😢 Unless something major happens again, I think this might be my last health update for a while as I’m so enjoying this stable season—I continually thank God for it and don’t want to take one moment for granted! I love you all and am so grateful that you are here with me in the valleys and on the mountain tops. 💚 
By Kerissa Lee December 28, 2025
Lucy and I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas! 🎄❤️ Yesterday, she turned 5 years old!! Where has the time gone?! She brings so much joy and laughter to our whole family—we love her more than words. 🥰 To celebrate and as this year comes to a close, my Pain With Purpose Shop is having a sale—I would love to clear out some of my old card inventory to make room for fresh, new designs in 2026!! ☺️ All cards have been marked down to $1.50 each. In addition, I’m also happy to share a promo code for FREE “first class” shipping which will work for all orders of up to 8 cards (unfortunately, an order of more than 8 cards switches to priority shipping..). To apply this offer, enter the code GOODBYE2025 to deduct the “first class” shipping fee. ✨ This sale and promo code will last through January 5th, 2026! Please don’t feel pressure at all to order from me…some of you buy my cards at full price, so I wanted to mark the card prices down for a bit! I’m so thankful for you all—your many prayers all these years have truly uplifted and encouraged me. I pray you have a blessed and happy new year!! 🤗 Stay tuned for my annual “reflections” blog post… ❤️
By Kerissa Lee November 17, 2025
Dear friends, Thank you so much for praying for me when I had that bad reaction to the autoimmune medication last month. I’m so incredibly blessed by your love and support. ❤️ I saw rheumatology recently, and instead of trying to prevent actual autoimmune disease from starting, they want to just monitor without any medication therapy. In other words, they want to see if more symptoms like fevers or rashes will appear (besides the joint pain that I already experience).. The medicine I did try (which worsened my mitochondrial symptoms) is actually the “safest” out there, and the other treatments for autoimmune disorders are much harder on the body—the team doesn’t think I’ll tolerate those well.. It’s difficult for them to know if all the bad antibodies that have been found in my blood will cause “actual” disease, and only time will tell.. So the plan is to just monitor and follow up with them in February. I wanted to see if my body could recover from this setback without having my IV fluids switched to a higher dextrose percentage. But by the last week of October (week 3 of this mitochondrial flare), the muscle weakness and increased pain all over was sadly still persisting, so I told my doctor. He sent in a new IV fluids order with the higher dextrose, and I’ve been receiving it for about 2 weeks now. I have definitely noticed an improvement in the muscle weakness which has been a huge blessing from the Lord. It was such a gift to feel well enough to go to a friend’s wedding reception at my church last week. 🥹 My cup was filled because I haven’t been able to see so many church friends in years! Regarding the piece of plaque that traveled to a small artery in my retina, I just had the carotid duplex scan completed last Tuesday to see if there’s any narrowing in the neck arteries. I also have the heart echocardiogram scheduled for tomorrow. My biggest, ongoing struggle has been my sleep. I’ve sadly been in a “catch 22” situation for many months now. I mentioned before that I was started on a new and safer pain medication this year. A rare side effect is insomnia, and it’s simply horrible. Night after night, every single day, I’m not able to fall asleep until after 4-6 AM. 😢 Believe me, I’ve tried every type of trick…from different sleep medications that my sleep specialist has prescribed, to all sorts of sleep supplements, praying, listening to worship music or white noise, stopping caffeine intake, etc. Nothing helps. The thing is, if I didn’t take this “new” pain medication, the pain from Mitochondrial DNA Depletion Syndrome is difficult to manage and it’s like an 8-9 on the pain scale. So then I’m up through the night, in horrible pain, and not able to sleep. But when I do take this medication, the pain is manageable, and it’s much safer to be on... Yet, I can’t sleep well while on it... Catch 22. I don’t know what to do, and it’s hard not to feel alone in this struggle. I’m so thankful to God that my health in other areas has been pretty stable.. In fact, this month (November) marks ONE WHOLE YEAR since I was last admitted to the hospital! Isn’t that soo amazing? Aside from these occasional mitochondrial flares/crashes (which happened in December, May, and October), I’ve been doing incredibly well, now that the neck weakness has resolved. But, this sleep struggle persists day after day.. I would love to be able to attend my church’s morning service in person or do many other activities in the morning. 😞 But I’m super exhausted. So many times, I ask God, “How do I go on and keep doing this every single night?” One thing I’ve learned is that God’s grace is truly sufficient for each day. He is the one who supplies me with the energy and grace to keep enduring. It’s hard, and I don’t know how long this sleep trial will last.. But, as Thanksgiving draws near, I’m reminded that I do have so much to be thankful for. Some of the biggest things: being physically able to help babysit my 4-month old foster nephew, shopping at the grocery store, having hand strength to design new note cards like the ones shown here, no longer experiencing neck weakness, and much more. The verse from Zephaniah I recently hand lettered above has been so encouraging lately. God is right by my side; he is mighty to save and will keep helping me through anything that I face. ❤️