Progressive weakness πŸ’”

Kerissa Lee • December 13, 2024

"He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be greatly shaken."

Psalm 62:2




Hi, friends,


It’s been more than a month since I last posted, and I’m sad to say that my symptoms have gotten much worse.


If you missed the update, this new weakness and pain put a lot of stress on my body, to the point that I went into another rough mitochondrial crash. The week before Thanksgiving, I was directly admitted to the hospital for 7 days due to nausea, vomiting, increased pain, nystagmus, very droopy eyelids, and more..


My “mito crash” symptoms thankfully resolved after receiving continuous IV dextrose and IV levocarnitine. The hospitalist (one of the most compassionate doctors I’ve ever met) also ordered the IV steroid dexamethasone to see if it would help this unusual muscle weakness in my neck, and it did! That was an answer to prayer, but, several days after getting discharged, my neck weakness started worsening again. 😭  We’re not sure if it’s due to the steroid wearing off?


It’s now difficult to lift my head off the pillow when lying down. I truly took for granted how vital the neck muscles are for any type of movement. πŸ₯Ί  I so miss being at my “normal” baseline and doing basic things like grocery shopping or even vacuuming. I also really miss creating hand lettered art like my old Christmas piece above from 2 years ago. 😒  Are you familiar with the “plank” exercise where you try to lift your abdomen off the ground horizontally as long as possible? Well, I’ve been in so much pain because it feels like I’m always doing a “plank” exercise but with my neck—it constantly aches and burns. 😭


3 of my doctors have all tried to refer me to neuromuscular neurology locally for this new weakness, but the referrals have been rejected each time. No one wants to see me due to my mitochondrial depletion diagnosis. 😒  So I emailed my neuromuscular specialist up at the University of Washington Medical Center and told him all about what’s happened. By God’s grace, my doctor moved up my appointment with him from March ‘25 to January ‘25 which is so caring and compassionate of him, especially since I haven’t seen him in more than 2 years. πŸ₯Ή  Even more amazing is that he completed a fellowship in neuro-immunology at the NIH and specializes in inflammatory muscle disorders. His expertise in this area is an answer to prayer since my immune system seems to be attacking my muscles (based on a lab result that came back showing antinuclear antibodies in my blood)..


It’s been an incredibly difficult and scary time, and it’s even harder because all this is happening during the holidays. I often feel so alone, having to be bed/recliner-bound and miss out on so much. πŸ₯Ί


But, despite all this, I’ve seen firsthand how God is still on the throne and is quietly working behind the scenes. Deuteronomy 31:6 and 8 has been an encouragement to me where it says that God goes with me and before me. This path is so painful, but I’m trying to remind myself that it’s not without its purpose. I may not know why this is happening right now, but I do know God is with me and will never leave me nor forsake me. ❀️


My primary care dr. is out on paternity leave until next month, so I saw his colleague yesterday. She was so kind and also very knowledgeable. She ordered the same steroid I received in the hospital to see if it will help this worsening neck weakness. If it is beneficial, she said that’s a great diagnostic tool because it tells us there IS something inflammatory going on in my body to cause this weakness..


Could you please pray that the steroids will help and also hold me over till I see the neurologist next month? If it doesn’t help, she said I may have to get directly admitted again.. πŸ˜”


Could you also pray that my neurologist will be able to swiftly diagnose the issue and come up with a plan for treatment?


Pray that I (and my family) will trust the Lord through all this uncertainty and keep an eternal perspective. It’s so hard not to worry, but I’m so grateful for all of your loving prayers and support during this trial, friends.   Merry Christmas! β€οΈπŸŽ„

Reflections on the year 2025 ❀️✨

By Kerissa Lee • January 3, 2026
Dear friends, As I reflect back on 2025, January started off looking very bleak. I had just recovered from yet another “mitochondrial crash” in December 2024, but my neck weakness was still significant and unresolved. I mentioned this many times, but I’ve never before experienced such severe muscle pain in my neck—it felt like my neck was doing a constant “plank exercise” 24/7. I cried so much and needed relief. 😭 Before this, I also truly took for granted how vital neck muscles are for ALL movement. Even simply standing requires neck strength to hold the head up. I was confined to my bed and the recliner because the neck weakness/pain was so debilitating. At the beginning of January was my long-awaited appointment with the neuromuscular neurologist at the University of Washington. But, the outcome was very disappointing because he simply took these symptoms to mean mitochondrial disease progression. My eyes are watering and my nose stings as I type this with emotion because I didn’t know (like I do now) what the following months would hold. I really did wonder if I was starting to die because not only did I have this disabling neck weakness but I also experienced severe nystagmus every single day (it never happened this frequently before). The brain is what controls eye movement, so my brain wasn’t getting enough energy needed for the simple act of moving the eyes. In February, after several blood tests came back with more “bad” autoimmune markers and I also started dealing with unusual joint pain in both elbows and shoulders, one of my doctors had me start taking 2 powerful antioxidants: N-Acetyl Cysteine (NAC) and Liposomal Glutathione. NAC, specifically, has shown that it can be beneficial for Lupus, an autoimmune disorder. We weren’t sure yet if my symptoms were early signs of Lupus, but my doctor recommended these antioxidants anyways for the mitochondrial depletion. When May came around, I once again had another “mito crash” with significant muscle weakness all over my body (not just in my neck), droopy eyelids, nausea, and increased pain. I was so thankful, though, that we were able to manage this one at home and I didn’t need to be admitted! Even more amazing was the fact that this was the month I noticed I could slightly lift my head half an inch off of the pillow (when lying down). Was God healing my neck? πŸ₯Ή June was a big month. As many of you know, 2 separate muscle biopsies show that I have Mitochondrial DNA Depletion Syndrome, but the doctors still can’t pinpoint the genetic mutation responsible for this depletion. So the OHSU metabolic team and I all wrote letters to apply to the NIH Undiagnosed Diseases Network (UDN). And God answered the first of many prayers as my case was surprisingly accepted. πŸ₯² I don’t currently have a recent update regarding this study as they told us it could take months or even years for anything to happen if anything happens at all (I should email them for an update). Last I heard, the team was analyzing all of my raw genetic data. At the end of June, my internal medicine doctor referred me to the Complex Pain clinic since I was still experiencing so much pain and needing high doses of pain meds. The specialist started me on Buprenorphine, but it’s been a rough go of it. It definitely helps the pain to become more manageable (another answer to prayer!), but it also causes horrible insomnia which I’m still dealing with. 😞 My sleep specialist said I’m basically experiencing a bad case of chronic jet lag—I’m simply exhausted and cannot fall asleep until 4:30-6:00 AM! 😭 A previous blog post shares about the “catch 22” I’m in. I’d so appreciate continued prayer for my sleep. It’s been very hard. :( July through September was amazing as I noticed that my neck weakness had improved a little more each day to the point that it eventually fully resolved….!! I truly could cry tears of joy and gratitude! πŸ₯ΉπŸ₯Ή Even my physical therapist started noticing that I didn’t have to hold my head up with my hands when moving around! God answered everyone’s prayers, and I fully believe he miraculously healed me in this area!! Yes, it could be that the 2 antioxidants helped, or it could be that I had finally recovered 9+ months later from something like Viral Myositis of the neck from fighting a viral infection in Hawaii in October 2024. My doctors just don’t know fully. But I am in awe at God’s lovingkindness and great mercy. πŸ₯Ήβ€οΈ 2 verses come to mind... One is from Ephesians 2:4–“But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us..” And the other is Philippians 2:27–“Indeed he was ill, near to death. But God had mercy on him..” The phrase “But God” sticks out to me. It reminds me that God is the one who has a plan and purpose for our lives, and it may be totally different than what we think is best or what we’d like. I don’t know what I would say or how I would act if the neck weakness still persisted to this day.. It would be extremely hard, and I know I would struggle greatly mentally and spiritually. But I also know 100% that God would faithfully sustain me like he did during those long, dark months from October 2024 to May 2025 and on.. God’s mercy continues to be so evident as I’m physically in even better shape than I was back in 2023. πŸ₯Ή Aside from my sleep, I’m doing so well that I might even have to find a part time job sometime down the road! I don’t know how long this “stable” period will last, and I know life could quickly change again in the blink of an eye (like it has in the past).. But, while I’m stable, I’m having the MOST JOY feeling quite “normal” and being strong enough/having the energy to babysit my almost 6-month old foster nephew. πŸ’™ He’s over 17 pounds now, and every time I hold him, it’s such a GIFT from the Lord to have the muscle strength for carrying/lifting him! I wanted to end this on a joyous note by sharing one last thing that happened in 2025–the opening of my Pain With Purpose Shop around my 33rd birthday this past October! ☺️ It’s a joy selling my handlettered designs (just a heads-up, my card inventory clearance sale ends on the 5th!). 😊 It’s also SO special that my church’s Care Ministry can send encouragement cards I’ve designed to those in our church body who are experiencing suffering. This gives me a little purpose since it’s sometimes hard not to feel useless living with a chronic illness (I’m sure many of you who are suffering can definitely relate..). 😒 Unless something major happens again, I think this might be my last health update for a while as I’m so enjoying this stable season—I continually thank God for it and don’t want to take one moment for granted! I love you all and am so grateful that you are here with me in the valleys and on the mountain tops. πŸ’š ο»Ώ

Lucy turned 5 (and a sale!) ❀️

By Kerissa Lee • December 28, 2025
Lucy and I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas! πŸŽ„β€οΈ Yesterday, she turned 5 years old!! Where has the time gone?! She brings so much joy and laughter to our whole family—we love her more than words. πŸ₯° To celebrate and as this year comes to a close, my Pain With Purpose Shop is having a sale—I would love to clear out some of my old card inventory to make room for fresh, new designs in 2026!! ☺️ All cards have been marked down to $1.50 each. In addition, I’m also happy to share a promo code for FREE “first class” shipping which will work for all orders of up to 8 cards (unfortunately, an order of more than 8 cards switches to priority shipping..). To apply this offer, enter the code GOODBYE2025 to deduct the “first class” shipping fee. ✨ This sale and promo code will last through January 5th, 2026! Please don’t feel pressure at all to order from me…some of you buy my cards at full price, so I wanted to mark the card prices down for a bit! I’m so thankful for you all—your many prayers all these years have truly uplifted and encouraged me. I pray you have a blessed and happy new year!! πŸ€— Stay tuned for my annual “reflections” blog post… ❀️

Catch 22

By Kerissa Lee • November 17, 2025
Dear friends, Thank you so much for praying for me when I had that bad reaction to the autoimmune medication last month. I’m so incredibly blessed by your love and support. ❀️ I saw rheumatology recently, and instead of trying to prevent actual autoimmune disease from starting, they want to just monitor without any medication therapy. In other words, they want to see if more symptoms like fevers or rashes will appear (besides the joint pain that I already experience).. The medicine I did try (which worsened my mitochondrial symptoms) is actually the “safest” out there, and the other treatments for autoimmune disorders are much harder on the body—the team doesn’t think I’ll tolerate those well.. It’s difficult for them to know if all the bad antibodies that have been found in my blood will cause “actual” disease, and only time will tell.. So the plan is to just monitor and follow up with them in February. I wanted to see if my body could recover from this setback without having my IV fluids switched to a higher dextrose percentage. But by the last week of October (week 3 of this mitochondrial flare), the muscle weakness and increased pain all over was sadly still persisting, so I told my doctor. He sent in a new IV fluids order with the higher dextrose, and I’ve been receiving it for about 2 weeks now. I have definitely noticed an improvement in the muscle weakness which has been a huge blessing from the Lord. It was such a gift to feel well enough to go to a friend’s wedding reception at my church last week. πŸ₯Ή My cup was filled because I haven’t been able to see so many church friends in years! Regarding the piece of plaque that traveled to a small artery in my retina, I just had the carotid duplex scan completed last Tuesday to see if there’s any narrowing in the neck arteries. I also have the heart echocardiogram scheduled for tomorrow. My biggest, ongoing struggle has been my sleep. I’ve sadly been in a “catch 22” situation for many months now. I mentioned before that I was started on a new and safer pain medication this year. A rare side effect is insomnia, and it’s simply horrible. Night after night, every single day, I’m not able to fall asleep until after 4-6 AM. 😒 Believe me, I’ve tried every type of trick…from different sleep medications that my sleep specialist has prescribed, to all sorts of sleep supplements, praying, listening to worship music or white noise, stopping caffeine intake, etc. Nothing helps. The thing is, if I didn’t take this “new” pain medication, the pain from Mitochondrial DNA Depletion Syndrome is difficult to manage and it’s like an 8-9 on the pain scale. So then I’m up through the night, in horrible pain, and not able to sleep. But when I do take this medication, the pain is manageable, and it’s much safer to be on... Yet, I can’t sleep well while on it... Catch 22. I don’t know what to do, and it’s hard not to feel alone in this struggle. I’m so thankful to God that my health in other areas has been pretty stable.. In fact, this month (November) marks ONE WHOLE YEAR since I was last admitted to the hospital! Isn’t that soo amazing? Aside from these occasional mitochondrial flares/crashes (which happened in December, May, and October), I’ve been doing incredibly well, now that the neck weakness has resolved. But, this sleep struggle persists day after day.. I would love to be able to attend my church’s morning service in person or do many other activities in the morning. 😞 But I’m super exhausted. So many times, I ask God, “How do I go on and keep doing this every single night?” One thing I’ve learned is that God’s grace is truly sufficient for each day. He is the one who supplies me with the energy and grace to keep enduring. It’s hard, and I don’t know how long this sleep trial will last.. But, as Thanksgiving draws near, I’m reminded that I do have so much to be thankful for. Some of the biggest things: being physically able to help babysit my 4-month old foster nephew, shopping at the grocery store, having hand strength to design new note cards like the ones shown here, no longer experiencing neck weakness, and much more. The verse from Zephaniah I recently hand lettered above has been so encouraging lately. God is right by my side; he is mighty to save and will keep helping me through anything that I face. ❀️ ο»Ώ