Catching up

Kerissa • February 8, 2017

Hello friends,

This is super long, so feel free to take a break and come back to this if need be… I’m sorry it’s been so long since I’ve done a proper update.  Too much has happened. :O  Thank you so much for all your prayers, cards, and emails!  You fill my life with joy time and again.

Mitochondrial Medicine

On January 17, my parents and I saw my mitochondrial specialist in San Diego.  I have now seen him in clinic 5 times.  At this appointment, he looked over all of my muscle biopsy results (the electron transport chain enzyme analysis, the mitochondrial DNA content analysis, muscle CoQ10 determination, electron microscopy, and histology).  In the mitochondrial electron transport chain, there are 5 complexes, and all 5 complexes work together to make ATP (energy).  Well, the analysis that was done shows that all my complexes are deficient (low).  They’re all deficient because of my significant mitochondrial DNA depletion.  My muscle CoQ10 is also very low, so I have to switch to a more potent form of CoQ10 (called Ubiquinol….I actually was taking this before, but it’s very expensive..).  Based on all of the information collected, my mito specialist says I have a definite (no longer probable) mitochondrial disease—specifically, a mitochondrial DNA depletion and a mitochondrial depletion.  Haha, you’re probably wondering if I’m repeating myself.. But no, those are actually two different things (I won’t try to explain the difference.. lol).  He’s never had a patient with both!  So he wanted to take a picture of me, and he plans to bring up my complex case to his colleagues..

He wants me to have yet another genetic sequencing panel done (hopefully my last!), but this one will look closely at all the depletion genes and even check for deletions.

My mito dr. also wants me to be a part of this certain registry of 200 patients.  I don’t know a whole lot of information yet (hopefully in the next couple weeks), but it’s related to the clinical trial that he’s currently a part of.  I’ll definitely keep you posted.

All in all, it was a good appointment and a lot to take in again.  My muscle biopsy results are much worse than my first biopsy back in 2014, and we don’t know if this is disease progression or what..

He wants to see me back in 6 months, but we’ll probably see him in a year or longer instead (especially since I heard back from that mitochondrial geneticist in Pasadena, CA—I will be seeing him this May!!).

Pain Medicine

On January 18th, I had an appointment with the medical director of the UCSD pain center.  It was very helpful.  He gave us a lot of information on medical cannabis and how much it can help nerve pain, muscle spasms, and more.  We have endocannabinoid receptors all throughout our bodies, and that’s why patients usually respond well to medical cannabis.  I hope to eventually trial CBD oil (FYI, I’m not interested in the psycho-active types of cannabis..lol ;).  This pain dr. works very closely with a Ph.D. in botanical medicine/horticultural studies.  She actually is a naturopathic physician and can do phone appointments with patients who live out of state.  So I have a phone appointment with her on February 23.  She’ll help me with dosing and tell me what type of CBD oil is best for the small fiber neuropathy that I have.

General Surgery

I had my port surgically placed on January 27th.  Surgery went well, but last week was so rough. :'(  My nurse wasn’t able to access my port.  She tried 2 different sized needles, and for some reason, my port wouldn’t flush even though she poked me 4 or 5 times. It was so very painful and complete torture since the surgery site was so fresh.  She even had another nurse come over and try accessing, but that nurse didn’t have success either.  The nurse came again 2 days later to try once more with another needle size.  But again, no success.  My nurses have accessed hundreds of ports, and they said this has never happened before. I even pulled off with my hands all the surgical glue over my incision in case it was “plugging” the hole of the needle.

I had to go without IV nutrition and IV magnesium for 3 whole days.  I was finally able to get an appointment at the OHSU infusion clinic this past Friday, and by God’s grace, the nurse was able to access my port on the first try!  We’re not sure if it’s because they used a power port needle with a bigger gauge (my home health infusion company only carries a basic port needle).  I wish the needle didn’t have to be so thick, tho!

So glad that the port is now working…. My GI dr. was worried I was going to have to head to the ER and get a PICC line placed in my arm if this infusion nurse couldn’t get it to work..

Hematology

The deep vein thrombosis (blood clot) is actually located in my subclavian and axillary veins.  There’s no blood flow through those veins. I had a chest CT scan right before surgery, and thankfully, it showed that the clot does not extend down into the superior vena cava.  But I have to get another venous duplex ultrasound scan next week to make sure that the clot has not grown.  If it has, my OHSU hematologist (who is nationally known!) will decide on what to do and if I need to be placed on anti-coagulant therapy….but my case makes things more complicated, so we’re praying that doesn’t happen..  Also, research has shown that blood thinners don’t really help catheter-associated DVTs.

Phew!  I think I need to take a break typing this… ha ha

Neurology

I saw my neurologist on January 30th, and she is going to work on getting insurance authorization for the depletion gene sequencing panel that my mito specialist wants completed.  She is also upping one of my medications that I take for my headaches as they are not quite under control yet..

Gastroenterology

This afternoon, I had my monthly follow-up with my GI specialist.  I will be having my weekly blood work drawn tomorrow, and he wants to see how my electrolytes look, especially since I went without TPN/IV Mg for 3 days last week and lost fluid weight.  He’s also going to keep an eye on my blood counts since I’m starting to become anemic again.

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Next week, I have appointments with physical therapy (twice), diagnostic imaging, pain medicine, and general surgery.  And I’m dreading it because they’re on Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday….and all at the OHSU Center for Health and Healing.  Lots of driving.. :/  OHSU is building a guest house right next to the center, and it will be completed next year! I hope I can stay there whenever I have several appointments in a row because I just feel sometimes like I live at OHSU..

P.S. One last thing, and then I’ll stop (could this be my longest post ever?!).

This week is Feeding Tube Awareness 2017!!

For those who don’t know, I have a feeding tube inserted in my jejunum (part of my small intestine).  I receive a peptide-based (broken-down) formula.  I also recently started putting through my j-tube an organic grass-fed whey protein nutritional shake (that I found online and is also sold at stores like New Seasons and Whole Foods).  I tolerate it well…maybe even better than the peptide formula!  And I love that it’s organic, grass-fed, and even contains fruits/veggies!

I also have a port implanted in my chest.  Every single afternoon, I receive 4 grams of IV magnesium through my port from about 4-8 PM.  And every single night, I infuse TPN (IV nutrition) through my port.  After each infusion, I have to flush my port with saline and heparin.  Before my feeding tube and all the central lines I’ve had, I was malnourished, chronically dehydrated, and labeled “failure to thrive.”  It’s hard having a line and a tube coming out of me….and it’s hard being hooked up so often….but I’m very thankful I’m no longer dehydrated and malnourished!

 

By Kerissa Lee March 17, 2026
"God is always doing more than we know, working toward a good we will one day rejoice in." -Lysa Terkeurst
By Kerissa Lee March 7, 2026
Hi, friends, I would really appreciate prayer. Some of you already know this, but at the end of January, I started dealing with an abdominal abscess right next to my j-tube. I looked back through my records, and that was my 6th abscess. :( Since then, it’s sadly been one issue after another. I won’t go into all that has happened, but I’d especially love prayer for my j-tube site. After the abscess, I had my tube changed to a new one on 2/27. The surgery nurse practitioner decided to try the next size up to see if it could possibly decrease some of the leakage, but unfortunately, that was the wrong decision. It’s too large, so now the site is leaking tenfold compared to my previous size. The small intestinal fluid that keeps leaking out around the tube is full of acid which is burning my skin and making it raw. 😭 If you want to know what it feels like, imagine having a bad burn on your skin…then, on top of that, imagine acid being poured onto the burn every hour continuously. That’s how much pain I’ve been in, and I haven’t been able to sleep very well until after 6:30-7 AM each night because the burn is so intense! :’( I could cry, and I have—that’s how bad the pain is… I would show you a picture of the site but it’s not pleasant. 🥺 I’ve been emailing the nurse practitioner every single day, asking to have the tube changed back to the previous size. She hasn’t been helpful. I’ve tried all of her recommendations, but they aren’t fixing the root cause. I had to get an x-ray with contrast earlier today to check tube placement. If she does eventually agree to have the tube changed, I don’t know how I’ll bear the pain of the procedure… Remember, they don’t use sedation for these procedures (my GI specialist is shocked they don’t!), and even though I’ve been asking for lidocaine to be injected for past tube replacements, how do I bear to have needles pushed into such raw tissue?! 😭 Please pray that I will be courageous and strong in the Lord. I think of the verse from Philippians 4:19, and it’s comforting: “And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus.” He will grant me the peace and strength I need to be brave. His grace is sufficient. ❤️
By Kerissa Lee January 3, 2026
Dear friends, As I reflect back on 2025, January started off looking very bleak. I had just recovered from yet another “mitochondrial crash” in December 2024, but my neck weakness was still significant and unresolved. I mentioned this many times, but I’ve never before experienced such severe muscle pain in my neck—it felt like my neck was doing a constant “plank exercise” 24/7. I cried so much and needed relief. 😭 Before this, I also truly took for granted how vital neck muscles are for ALL movement. Even simply standing requires neck strength to hold the head up. I was confined to my bed and the recliner because the neck weakness/pain was so debilitating. At the beginning of January was my long-awaited appointment with the neuromuscular neurologist at the University of Washington. But, the outcome was very disappointing because he simply took these symptoms to mean mitochondrial disease progression. My eyes are watering and my nose stings as I type this with emotion because I didn’t know (like I do now) what the following months would hold. I really did wonder if I was starting to die because not only did I have this disabling neck weakness but I also experienced severe nystagmus every single day (it never happened this frequently before). The brain is what controls eye movement, so my brain wasn’t getting enough energy needed for the simple act of moving the eyes. In February, after several blood tests came back with more “bad” autoimmune markers and I also started dealing with unusual joint pain in both elbows and shoulders, one of my doctors had me start taking 2 powerful antioxidants: N-Acetyl Cysteine (NAC) and Liposomal Glutathione. NAC, specifically, has shown that it can be beneficial for Lupus, an autoimmune disorder. We weren’t sure yet if my symptoms were early signs of Lupus, but my doctor recommended these antioxidants anyways for the mitochondrial depletion. When May came around, I once again had another “mito crash” with significant muscle weakness all over my body (not just in my neck), droopy eyelids, nausea, and increased pain. I was so thankful, though, that we were able to manage this one at home and I didn’t need to be admitted! Even more amazing was the fact that this was the month I noticed I could slightly lift my head half an inch off of the pillow (when lying down). Was God healing my neck? 🥹 June was a big month. As many of you know, 2 separate muscle biopsies show that I have Mitochondrial DNA Depletion Syndrome, but the doctors still can’t pinpoint the genetic mutation responsible for this depletion. So the OHSU metabolic team and I all wrote letters to apply to the NIH Undiagnosed Diseases Network (UDN). And God answered the first of many prayers as my case was surprisingly accepted. 🥲 I don’t currently have a recent update regarding this study as they told us it could take months or even years for anything to happen if anything happens at all (I should email them for an update). Last I heard, the team was analyzing all of my raw genetic data. At the end of June, my internal medicine doctor referred me to the Complex Pain clinic since I was still experiencing so much pain and needing high doses of pain meds. The specialist started me on Buprenorphine, but it’s been a rough go of it. It definitely helps the pain to become more manageable (another answer to prayer!), but it also causes horrible insomnia which I’m still dealing with. 😞 My sleep specialist said I’m basically experiencing a bad case of chronic jet lag—I’m simply exhausted and cannot fall asleep until 4:30-6:00 AM! 😭 A previous blog post shares about the “catch 22” I’m in. I’d so appreciate continued prayer for my sleep. It’s been very hard. :( July through September was amazing as I noticed that my neck weakness had improved a little more each day to the point that it eventually fully resolved….!! I truly could cry tears of joy and gratitude! 🥹🥹 Even my physical therapist started noticing that I didn’t have to hold my head up with my hands when moving around! God answered everyone’s prayers, and I fully believe he miraculously healed me in this area!! Yes, it could be that the 2 antioxidants helped, or it could be that I had finally recovered 9+ months later from something like Viral Myositis of the neck from fighting a viral infection in Hawaii in October 2024. My doctors just don’t know fully. But I am in awe at God’s lovingkindness and great mercy. 🥹❤️ 2 verses come to mind... One is from Ephesians 2:4–“But God, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which he loved us..” And the other is Philippians 2:27–“Indeed he was ill, near to death. But God had mercy on him..” The phrase “But God” sticks out to me. It reminds me that God is the one who has a plan and purpose for our lives, and it may be totally different than what we think is best or what we’d like. I don’t know what I would say or how I would act if the neck weakness still persisted to this day.. It would be extremely hard, and I know I would struggle greatly mentally and spiritually. But I also know 100% that God would faithfully sustain me like he did during those long, dark months from October 2024 to May 2025 and on.. God’s mercy continues to be so evident as I’m physically in even better shape than I was back in 2023. 🥹 Aside from my sleep, I’m doing so well that I might even have to find a part time job sometime down the road! I don’t know how long this “stable” period will last, and I know life could quickly change again in the blink of an eye (like it has in the past).. But, while I’m stable, I’m having the MOST JOY feeling quite “normal” and being strong enough/having the energy to babysit my almost 6-month old foster nephew. 💙 He’s over 17 pounds now, and every time I hold him, it’s such a GIFT from the Lord to have the muscle strength for carrying/lifting him! I wanted to end this on a joyous note by sharing one last thing that happened in 2025–the opening of my Pain With Purpose Shop around my 33rd birthday this past October! ☺️ It’s a joy selling my handlettered designs (just a heads-up, my card inventory clearance sale ends on the 5th!). 😊 It’s also SO special that my church’s Care Ministry can send encouragement cards I’ve designed to those in our church body who are experiencing suffering. This gives me a little purpose since it’s sometimes hard not to feel useless living with a chronic illness (I’m sure many of you who are suffering can definitely relate..). 😢 Unless something major happens again, I think this might be my last health update for a while as I’m so enjoying this stable season—I continually thank God for it and don’t want to take one moment for granted! I love you all and am so grateful that you are here with me in the valleys and on the mountain tops. 💚