Pain and Potassium Problems.

Kerissa • February 23, 2017

“I choose to believe that God is good even though He doesn’t heal me.  That when life goes wrong and I suffer, He is with me.  To join with the prophet to sing “He deals wondrously with us!” even when the wonderful life I expected doesn’t turn out the way I’d hoped.” |

He Speaks in the Silence

Hello everyone,

First off, for those who aren’t on Facebook, I just want to share with you some good news!!  Last week, I had a repeat venous duplex scan to check up on the DVT (blood clot) that formed in my subclavian and axillary veins.  Well, guess what?!  The clot is completely gone!!  Isn’t that amazing?? All the glory goes to God!  Thank you all for praying for me during these last few weeks.  I’m blessed to have an army of prayer warriors by my side!

Last Thursday, I had a post-op surgery appointment.  Unfortunately, my jejunostomy feeding tube that was replaced while I was in the O.R. for my port surgery a few weeks ago was not the correct size. That is, they got the diameter correct but not length. *sigh*  So at this post-op appointment, the surgery resident replaced the feeding tube, and I had to be completely awake for it without any numbing medication. :'(  The procedure was extremely painful because my skin around the stoma (hole) was all raw and inflamed from the tube being the wrong size.  It was an 11 on a pain scale of 1-10.  Seriously! The tube is about a foot long, and I couldn’t breath because I could feel the doctor push the tube in inch by inch.  I’ve experienced a lot of painful procedures, but I think this tops it all.  I don’t know how I’ll bear another tube change in 9 or so months….I dread the thought of it!!  But I will try not to worry about the future..  I am reminded that God’s grace is sufficient.  It is enough.  For today….for the future.

Since November, I’ve had a lingering cough that I just can’t seem to kick.  If I have a lot of doctor appointments and I need to wake up “early,” my cough worsens when I’m tired and I have to use my inhaler more often.  Well in December, the cough was especially bad, and I started experiencing terrible upper right back pain then.  It hurt to breathe even!  And my physical therapists weren’t sure what was going on.  The pain was way worse than a muscle strain.  But the CT scan I had for that blood clot showed what was wrong.  It turns out that I fractured a rib….just from coughing! Wasn’t expecting that!  I’m glad for answers, though.  Based on the images, my rib is still healing..  My physical therapist said my bone mineral density is weak because of all my conditions..

We’re not sure what’s going on now, but I haven’t been feeling well. I get a very achy back that comes and goes, and it worsens to the point that I need one of my strong pain medications.  My blood potassium level has also been lower than my normal, so I told my nephrologist.  I believe she’s going to add more potassium to my daily IV magnesium infusion bags to see if that helps.  On top of that, I’ve had a severe, pounding headache the last few days with nausea, and we don’t know if this is all related with the back pain and potassium issues..

Or is the headache from my anemia, the nausea from all the pain, and the achy back from the low potassium?  Or, is my body just now having a rough time recovering from all that’s happened the last several weeks (DVT, port surgery, San Diego trip, feeding tube replacement, broken rib, cough, etc.) and I’m going through a “mito crash”?  I almost had to go to the ER yesterday…I felt so horrible, and I still do this evening. But I am seeing my PCP (my main PCP is on maternity leave) in evening clinic tomorrow, and I pray he can help..  Trying my hardest to avoid the ER!

Continuing to take it one day at a time.  I recently read something really encouraging in Joni Eareckson Tada’s newest devotional A Spectacle of Glory—“I may walk in pain, but I also walk in grace.”  So very true, and I remind myself of this often. She also writes, “For all the many times [the apostle Paul] was distressed by his weakness, he had the supporting grace of Christ…..grace always, always meets us at our point of pain!”

By Kerissa Lee • October 31, 2026
Dear friends, I just cannot believe it’s been more than 2 months since my last blog post! So much has happened, but most of it is very happy news!! ☺️ I saw my GI surgeon in September for my post-op appointment (check out my previous post if you missed what surgery I had in August). I’m all healed thankfully, although there is now a noticeable crater on my abdomen where my j-tube used to be. :( Scar tissue inside is what’s causing that, and she told me I need to be careful when carrying very heavy things because I could get a hernia in that spot. 😣 If that happened, she said she can easily repair it! I definitely don’t want another surgery, though! Aside from the short 4-day hospital stay I had in August for that abdominal surgery, I’m soo happy to share that the middle of November 2026 marks 2 WHOLE YEARS since I was last admitted to the hospital for a “mito crash!” I could cry from tears of happiness, and all praise and glory truly goes to God!! 🥹 My previous stretch of stable health lasted about 17 months (from September 2021 to February 2023), so I surpassed that which is simply amazing! Because my health has been doing so well, even more incredible news is that I got a part time job!! I found work through care.com since I LOVE babies and kids. I started occasionally taking care of a 6 month old baby girl—she’s so adorable!! I also sometimes take care of a 5 year old girl with her 3 year old brother. For both of those jobs, I’m just the backup (for example, when extended family can’t provide care). But, last week, another mom reached out on care.com asking if I could be her 2 daughters’ afternoon nanny every Monday—the oldest girl is 6 years old, and her little sister is almost 3 years old. It’s been so wonderful and fulfilling to be able to work. I never want to take for granted how much of a gift it is to have a job! 🥲 I do still have to rest my body on the days I don’t work because my muscle spasticity gets soo intense and painful. 😞 It feels like my back muscles just continually clench up and spasm. Very thankful for the muscle relaxant Baclofen which helps the extreme tightness! The chronic pain also worsens in my legs/back, and my hand tremors do, too (called minipolymyoclonus). Regardless of these symptoms, it makes me so happy and thankful to God for the ability to work! 💚 You might have noticed that I haven’t mentioned anything lately about my Pain With Purpose store. There are a bunch of reasons, but one of the biggest is that shipping has become more and more expensive which is a bummer. 😞 For the past year, whenever a customer places an order, I’ve been paying part of the shipping cost out of my own pocket because I wanted to keep the shipping fee low. I’ve also wanted to keep card prices low because I totally understand how expensive everything is in this economy. But in today’s digital world, a really nice card (at Papyrus, for example) could cost more than $9!! So charging only $2.75 for one of my cards on top of keeping the shipping fee low has been a challenge. After thinking about it a lot, I’ve made the decision to close my store—at least, for now! Next year, it’d be super cool to sell my items (cards, stickers, bookmarks, prints, and magnets) at something like a pop-up! 😊 So I will definitely be sure to keep you posted with any new shop updates! If you did place an order this past year, I wanted to say a big Thank You!! It meant so much to me, and I hope my cards were an encouragement. 🥰 I don't know what God has planned for my future regarding my health and everything else, but I just want to have faith and keep leaning on him for strength, through any future highs or lows. The Lord truly is faithful! Thank you so much for praying for me these past 16+ years. ❤️
By Kerissa Lee • August 21, 2026
Dear friends, I just wanted to thank you all so much for praying for me during my abdominal surgery on August 6th! 💚 All of your messages/emails really encouraged my heart! If you missed my previous post, I had to have an unexpected surgery to take down the jejunostomy tract and repair an enterocutaneous fistula (a rare complication from having a j-tube for 12 years). I truly felt your prayers, and the Lord answered so many of them as well! 🥹 My surgeon only had to remove about 1 1/2 inches of my small intestine which is great news! I was in the hospital for 4 days because my blood pressure was low and pain control was rough (it’s a long story, but pain management is complex due to a specific medication I take daily at home..). But aside from that and having an allergic reaction to the surgical glue, I’ve been healing well. Thank you again for praying!! God has been so faithful throughout this journey. I got a visit from my sweet foster nephew when I was in the hospital (2nd picture)! 🥰 I can’t wait until I can show you his face—he’s so adorable. 🩵 I’ve mentioned this before, but an important medication I take causes severe insomnia (still not falling asleep until anywhere between 3 AM-9 AM). 😞 But I saw my naturopath this past Monday, and she’s going to treat me for suspected cortisol spiking up during the night (which disrupts the body’s circadian rhythm). I’m thankful for the wisdom God gives her, and I’m excited to see if this treatment will help! It will take 6 weeks to see if there’s any benefit, but I first have to specially order it.. 
By Kerissa Lee • August 6, 2026
"God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble." -Psalm 46:1