Trusting.

Kerissa • April 27, 2017

“It is a glorious thing to know that your Father God makes no mistakes in directing or permitting that which crosses the path of your life.  It is the glory of God to conceal a matter.  It is our glory to trust Him, no matter what.”

~Joni Eareckson Tada 

Hello friends,

I’m so sorry it’s been more than a month since I last blogged! To be honest, the last several weeks have been very rough….

Long story short, I had yet another ER visit/hospital stay at the beginning of April because of issues with my port, neurogenic bladder complications (I had to be cathed, and they couldn’t get “it” in on the first AND second try which was so extremely painful!!! The third try almost didn’t work either!), dehydration, terrible nausea/vomiting, weakness, and other horrible medical stuff.  This admission was only 3 days, but it was really hard because I felt so miserable and yucky.

Here are all the other numerous medical updates:

Gastroenterology–

Good news first!  I am maintaining my weight and not losing more, so increasing my tube feeds is enough and we don’t have to up my TPN calories.

2-3 weeks ago, I started experiencing some concerning GI symptoms, and my GI specialist now believes my lower esophageal sphincter (LES) is not closing well.  This is not good news. My LES not working properly is causing me to have gastroesophageal reflux (GERD).  I wish I didn’t have to deal with yet another problem on top of everything else going on. There’s no easy fix for this, but he is having me try 2 weeks of a proton pump inhibitor med.  Would appreciate your prayers that this med can at least reduce the frequency of these new symptoms—haven’t been sleeping well at all because it happens often at night.

Orthopedic Surgery–

I had an 8-month post-op appointment with my hip surgeon recently.  I continue to need physical therapy twice a week.  I make good progress, but every time I get admitted to the hospital, that progress gets set back. It’s sad for both me and my physical therapists because it takes a lot of hard work to strengthen my muscles, and with every hospital stay, I become weak and don’t bounce back fast.

Nephrology–

Recently, my blood Magnesium level dropped, so my nephrologist had to increase my IV Mg yet AGAIN. I now receive 8 GRAMS of IV Mg every single day which is a crazy huge amount!!  My GI dr. keeps saying I’m the black hole of Mg.

Physical Medicine–

My PCP referred me to my physical medicine dr. to get his input regarding my achy back that I continue to have.  Because of my osteopenia, he wanted to make sure that my achy back is not from any spinal compression fractures.  Thankfully, the x-ray was normal.  So the pain is most likely due to my muscle weakness…..I will be seen in his brace clinic to get fitted for a flexible thoracic back brace.  Unfortunately, he is completely booked out, so I can’t get fitted for one until the middle of July! I am on his waiting list, though, in case anyone cancels..

ENT–

My ENT dr. has been a Top Doctor in the Portland Monthly magazine many times, and I’m not surprised at all!  He is so knowledgeable and caring. He doesn’t think post-nasal drip is what’s causing my chronic cough.  Instead, he thinks I have a type of asthma (there are many types!), so he’s starting me on a steroid inhaler which is to be used with a “spacer.”  He did say it will take a while to start working.  I’m to see him again in 3 months..

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As you can see, so much keeps happening.  It’s a lot for me to process, but I am trying to continue rejoicing in suffering.  It’s definitely not easy, and I wonder if/when something big will ever happen that’s not BAD news.  But, as I keep plugging away, I will rejoice in my sufferings, “knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us” (Romans 5:3-5).

Continuing to put my hope in Christ!

P.S. Aren’t these flowers so beautiful? Very kind church friends gave them to me 2 1/2 weeks ago, and I’m still enjoying them even today!

By Kerissa Lee April 16, 2026
Hi, friends, I just wanted to write an update on what’s happened since my last post. Sadly, the 2 different tube changes haven’t helped, and there’s still so much leaking around the tube. 🙁 The abdominal pain was decreasing each day, but for some reason, it has ramped up again and has been steadily getting worse the last several days. The pain is sharp and throbbing—it also hurts to use my abdominal muscles. I saw my primary care dr. this past Friday, and he ordered an urgent CT scan. I had that done this past Monday, and the scan shows that the balloon on the tube is lodged in my abdominal wall (it’s called buried bumper syndrome). 😥 So painful, but I’m thankful for answers! I actually had this issue many years ago, and usually, changing the tube size helps. But we’ve already tried 2 different tube sizes in March which hasn’t helped. I don’t know if the tract got damaged or what.. My PCP messaged the surgery team twice now, but they’re not responding still. Ever since my general surgeon left OHSU 2ish years ago to practice in New Orleans, it hasn’t been a good transfer to a different team. 😢 In addition, the CT scan also revealed that I have ground glass opacities in my left lung, so I have to go through work-up for that as well to figure out the cause.. Aside from these latest issues, I’m praising God that my mitochondrial disease has been stable still!! So thankful for God’s grace and faithfulness. The day I got my CT results, I read this excerpt below from one of Joni Eareckson Tada’s daily devotionals, and it was like the Lord was speaking right to my heart. I hope it’s an encouragement to you. ❤️ “Present pain and afflictions tend to heighten future joy. When is peace the sweetest? Right after the conflict. When does a cold drink taste best? When you’ve become very thirsty. When do you appreciate rest the most? After hours of hard labor. When is joyful company most pleasant? After enduring long days of loneliness. The truth is, our recollection of past sufferings may one day enhance the bliss of heaven. Eternity with the Lord will be so much more heavenly to those of us whose faith has been tested, battered, and tried, time and again.” -Joni Eareckson Tada One more thing.. I’d really love prayers for my uncle (my dad’s older brother). He’s been very sick in the neuro ICU with serious issues. First pneumonia, then bacteria in his spine which later broke his back. He had a major spinal surgery but still can’t move his legs. 🥺 On top of that, his kidneys started failing, so he had to be placed on continuous dialysis. He also had to be put on a ventilator due to fluid in his lungs. Then, he still couldn’t breathe well, so he had to get a tracheostomy tube placed in his neck. 🥺 Despite all this, he and his family are so strong and trusting the Lord which is a huge testimony to all of us and to the ICU. Could you please pray for peace, strength, and healing over his body? I know he and his family would be so grateful for your prayers. 💙 P.S. I wish I could show you my foster nephew’s sweet face in this photo from Easter Sunday! He is now 9 months old—the most precious and adorable little boy!! Our lives are so much sweeter with him in it. 🥹
By Kerissa Lee March 31, 2026
Dear Dr. Phillips, There aren’t enough words to express how thankful I am to have had such an amazing GI doctor like you these past 13 years. I think of all the hard challenges that have happened starting at age 20 and beyond: experiencing GI dysmotility, not being able to eat “normal” foods without terrible abdominal pain/distention, only tolerating soft consistencies like baby food pouches (which was not fun as a 22 year old!), needing an NJ tube placed down my nose, having a jejunostomy tube surgically placed, then no longer tolerating tube feeds, dropping down to 77 pounds, getting admitted the day after Christmas to start TPN, being surprised by the extremely high copper levels on my liver biopsy and starting treatment for that, going through septic shock which caused ischemic hepatitis (remember when my liver function test was 1674!), having sepsis 5 other times from multiple central lines and ports, requiring urgent surgery to remove my gallbladder, needing D10 added to my IV fluids for numerous mitochondrial crashes, and much more. Through all the highs and lows, you were there for me, and I truly feel like I hit the “doctor jackpot” to have had a GI specialist as caring, compassionate, knowledgeable, and kind as you. I shed quite a few tears to my chagrin at my last in-person appointment with you in February 2026, and I still do as I reminisce and write this letter. But, they aren’t just tears of sadness. They are also tears of gratitude—I know this journey would have been much more difficult if I didn’t have your wonderful care and support all these years. I’m so happy that I was able to get off of TPN back then after 5 years of being on it. Not only that, but I’m so thankful that I can eat orally to my heart’s content without pain and abdominal distention. I know that’s in part due to you, so thank you. From the bottom of my heart, thank you so very much for caring for me. I will never forget you, and I wish you all the best as you start your retirement. :’) With immense gratitude, Kerissa
By Kerissa Lee March 17, 2026
"God is always doing more than we know, working toward a good we will one day rejoice in." -Lysa Terkeurst